Analysis of ‘It,’ Part V

Here are Parts I, II, III, and IV, in case you haven’t read them yet.

XXI: Eddie’s Bad Break

In the library, Eddie feels a sharp pain in his arm, a memory from back when he was a kid, and Henry and his gang attacked Eddie and broke his arm (page 987). This is not to say that he immediately remembers the cause of the break, of course–the pain is the result of repressed trauma rising back up to the surface of consciousness. Remembering Henry is something he just doesn’t want to do.

The pain has been triggered by all the childhood memories that the other adult Losers are bringing up in their conversations in the library. Trauma can resurface in the form of physical pain. What’s striking here about Eddie, though, is how, as a guy who’s normally neurotic in the extreme about germs and ill health, he thinks so little about the broken arm that he’s forgotten how he got it from Henry.

A little later, Bill remembers Eddie’s mother, and how she seemed a combination of crazy, miserable, furious, and frightened (page 990). Shortly after that, Eddie’s aspirator rolls across the table by itself. Then Ben points out the balloons, which read that “ASTHMA MEDICINE GIVES YOU CANCER!” (page 991). Eddie then remembers Mr. Keene, the owner of the Center Street Drug Store; he told Mike about the Bradley Gang shootout (section XVII, from Part IV). Mr. Keene was also the one to tell Eddie, when he was a kid, that the asthma medicine he’d been giving Eddie was just a placebo (page 1000).

Sitting in the back of the drug store and having ice cream with Mr. Keene, little Eddie learns that the placebo he’s getting is “head-medicine” for an asthma that is only in his mind, because his mother has been manipulating him into believing he really has it. This placebo cures his asthma in his head, too.

Now, the placebo is another example of the duality of good and bad in It. The placebo is good in how it “makes the patient feel better,” as Mr. Keene tells Eddie (page 1001). You can “see the harm,” though, the bad in a placebo, in how it is a lie. Specifically, it perpetuates Eddie’s mother’s lie that he needs it. As an emotionally abusive mother, she’s using Eddie’s “asthma” to control him, as a form of Munchausen Syndrome by Proxy.

Naturally, Eddie can’t accept the idea that his mother is deceiving him (page 1003). He’d rather believe that Mr. Keene is lying to him than that she is. What Eddie is doing here is using a defence mechanism called ‘turning around upon the subject’s own self.’ He’d rather be ‘sick’ than realize that the caregiver he, as a little kid, depends on to survive is trying to hurt him.

So again, in this defence mechanism, we see that duality of good and bad. Believing his mom’s lie about having asthma is ‘good’ because it relieves him of the anxiety of having to deal with an emotionally abusive mother, yet it’s also bad for obvious reasons.

After the drug store scene, Eddie gets bullied by Henry Bowers and his gang, this time including Victor Criss, “Moose” Sadler, and Patrick Hockstetter (page 1008). Henry wants revenge for the rockfight, naturally, and like a cowardly bully, with the help of his gang, he goes after the weakest kid, who is all alone.

Of course, Henry projects his cowardice and weakness onto Eddie by mocking his understandably tremulous words, “Leave me alone,” and waving his hands in mock terror (page 1010).

A nearby store owner named Mr. Gedreau intervenes (page 1011), trying to stop the gang from bullying Eddie, but Henry demonstrates further that he’s more than a mere bully–he’s an out-and-out psychopath. He gives the man “a good hard push,” knocking him down on the steps going up to the screen-door entrance of his store (page 1012). He sees “the light in Henry’s eyes” (which significantly reminds me of Its “deadlights“), and he threatens to call the cops; but Henry gives him a threat of his own, making to lunge at the man and making him flinch back.

Eddie sees his chance to escape and runs away, “Asthma or no asthma.” Of course, the gang chases after him. They get him, and Henry in his fury has the boy by the arm, it twists, and there’s a cracking sound, with a pain that’s “gray and huge” (page 1014). This breaking of little Eddie’s arm parallels the tearing-off of Georgie’s arm, thus reinforcing the closeness in identity between Henry and Pennywise.

The Bowers gang runs away after noting the approach of Mr. Nell (pages 1015-1017), the cop who earlier told the kids in the Barrens to get rid of their dam. Eddie is then taken to hospital. After receiving care from the doctor and nurses, Eddie sees his mother.

Significantly, he finds her eyes to be “almost predatory” (page 1021). There sees to be little difference between the Bowers gang and his mother as bullies. Her eyes also seem like those of the lecherous leper from the basement at 29 Neibolt Street, thus linking these bullies with Pennywise.

That his mother and the leper would be similar in the sexually predatory sense is in how Mrs. Kaspbrak exploits her son’s Oedipal feelings for her (later transferred onto his similarly overweight, overprotective wife, Myra, recall) so she can control him. Though such a relationship doesn’t involve actual physical incest, it is emotional incest, in that his mother uses him to fulfill emotional needs normally satisfied in a romantic relationship.

Since she’s overweight, she has obvious health problems that she won’t do the difficult work to overcome. It’s far easier for her to project health concerns onto her boy (via Munchausen Syndrome by Proxy) than to deal with her own health problems. Hence, her excessive worries about his physical well-being.

Ironically, she’s far more worried about the ‘bad’ influence of Eddie’s friends, the Losers, than about the bullies who broke his arm. So when the Losers come to the hospital to see him, she sends them all away, upsetting Eddie terribly (pages 1028-1029).

All of what Eddie’s been going through for the past twenty-four hours has been nothing less than overwhelming. Mr. Keene has planted a seed of doubt in the little boy’s mind as to what his mom’s true intentions are with the asthma medicine, mere water with an added medicine-like taste. Henry broke his arm, just after that revelation, and so before he’s even had time to process the emotional shock of it. And now, his controlling mother–reinforcing that original emotional shock–won’t let him see the small group of people he still trusts, those who can give him the real emotional soothing he so desperately needs.

This excess of shocks to his system, both in body and in mind, is the essence of trauma.

Though she acknowledges that it was Henry who broke Eddie’s arm, she stoops to victim-blaming to explain why the bully did it (he was provoked by the Losers, rather than he provoked them first, getting a rock-thrown reaction he deserved to suffer). Her attitude infuriates Eddie, making him tell her off good and proper, in spite of the weakness she’s imposed on him.

In his brief rant, he hits a nerve in her: she’s jealous of his friends out of a fear that they’ll take him away from her and leave her all alone (page 1031). Such jealousy is at the core of what the Oedipus complex represents: one narcissistically hogs another to oneself, never sharing one’s object, keeping him or her in a dyadic relationship, and other people threaten to compromise that one-on-one relationship. This is what she’s afraid of, and this is why she rejects the Losers.

She tries using tears to make him regret what he’s said (page 1031), but she’s shocked to find they are’t working the way they normally do. Eddie is standing firm in his bond with his friends.

She keeps trying to guilt-trip him with her tears, accusing him of hurting her, and calling the Losers “bad friends” (page 1033, King’s emphasis); but he won’t have her make him choose between her and them.

After more insisting from her that he give up his friends, he tells her what Mr. Keene told him. Though she maintains that Keene is lying about the medicine being just water, Eddie has accepted that it’s the truth. He has also accepted the truth that the asthma is all in his head (page 1035).

But now that it seems that Eddie’s mom is about to fall apart from the possibility of losing his love, he says that maybe Mr. Keene was joking about the medicine-as-water, and the asthma as being only in Eddie’s head (page 1036). Eddie also, with considerable shrewdness, tells her he’ll still hang out with his friends…while also still using his aspirator.

She realizes that this decision of his is a form of blackmail: he’ll go along with the asthma b.s. and let her baby him the way she does…if he can still have his friends. She has no other choice but to let him have his way. She’s been manipulating him, and now she’s being manipulated by him. It’s called karma.

Though she has to accept her son’s conditions, she never wants to see Mr. Keene again, for having put her in this situation (page 1037).

The irony of all of this is that, through the escalation of all of these problems for Eddie, he’s found a way to stop his mother from being so domineering…by continuing to use the aspirator, in spite of knowing he’s never needed it. He’ll pretend to continue being controlled by her, though both of them know he’s on to her.

The resolving of this conflict is thus another example of the good/bad duality in the novel. It’s bad that Eddie got hurt, but it’s good that he has been able to use Mr. Keene’s shocking revelation to get his mom off his back and to keep his friends. He’s been brave, standing up to his mom like that, but he’s still “scared, so scared” (page 1038, King’s emphasis).

That evening, the Losers return to the hospital to see him. Now, he can get that emotional soothing he’s so desperately needed for so long…for unlike what his mother has insisted, these are good friends.

The Losers tell Eddie about their plan to melt down a silver dollar and make it into projectiles–two silver bullet-like balls–to shoot at It in Its werewolf form, if they see the werewolf at 29 Neibolt Street. They’ll use Bill’s Bullseye slingshot to fire the balls at It, and “Beverly Oakley” has proven herself to have the marksmanship skills to hit It (page 1040).

XXII: Another One of the Missing: The Death of Patrick Hockstetter

With the ending of Eddie’s story, he reminds Beverly of when she saw It kill Patrick Hockstetter. And now she has a story of her own to tell (page 1045).

When we consider the kinds of filthy habits, filthy to the point of being disturbing, that Patrick had (killing flies, collecting them in his pencil box, and displaying them to his classmates; his abuse of animals and keeping them in an abandoned fridge in the Barrens; his murder of his baby brother; and him giving Henry Bowers a hand job after they, Belch, and Victor were lighting their farts), we can see why Beverly would first remember her abusive father and “that smell, the one they made between them” (page 1049, King’s emphasis).

This smell she and her father made between them is yet another hint that she has trauma from sexual abuse inflicted by him, abuse repressed so far inside of her unconscious that she has no explicit memories of penetration, but rather those return to consciousness in unrecognizable forms (the smell, the blood in the yonic sink-hole, etc.). She also remembers how, back then, around when Patrick died, that she was beginning to fill out, to become a woman, to have the kind of shapely figure men like, something to inflame Al‘s lust and make him all the scarier to her. Patrick’s own perversity is triggering her traumatic memories of her dad.

Speaking of smells, she also remembers the smell of the Barrens, the smell of the smoke-hole, when she went by the clubhouse to practice shooting with Bill’s Bullseye Slingshot. It’s there that, again, speaking of smells, she–an innocent, pre-teen girl in the late 1950s–saw Henry, Victor, Belch, and Patrick with their pants down, lighting farts (pages 1049-1050).

Now, the sight was a combination of hilarious, perverse, disturbing, and terrifying for her; for if those boys had caught her seeing what they were doing, “God knows what would have happened then.” (page 1049, King’s emphasis). Again, we have the good/bad duality: good (funny and entertaining), and bad (scary and disturbing). She was lucky to have the underbrush and a car to hide behind. She had to keep herself from laughing, so they wouldn’t hear her, and if she’d tried to run away, they might have seen her.

After a while of lighting farts and burning asses, Victor and Belch had to leave, so Henry and Patrick would be alone together…or so they thought (page 1059). A little later, they stopped lighting farts, and Henry was receiving a hand job from Patrick, who was also touching himself (page 1062). As shocked as Bev was to see all of this,…”Still, she couldn’t look away.”

She thought about the male anatomy her otherwise innocent eyes were seeing, and she thought about Bill’s, imagining herself touching them. Again, we have the mix of good and bad: her horror and disgust at seeing the balls of her bullies, and the thought of handling those of a boy she really likes.

Her dad would be worrying a lot about her just then.

Patrick then offers to give Henry a blow job (page 1063).

There’s no way Henry’s going to go that far with homosexual activity, so in his predictable homophobia, he hits Patrick. The ironic thing about many homophobes is how they might be willing to open their minds to gay sexual acts, if not for disapproving mainstream society. Contemplating the implications of such open-mindedness is too much of a threat to the masculinity of someone like Henry, so he won’t go any further than hand-jobs.

Now, the homosexual acts here add to the creepiness of the scene not through homosexuality per se, but through a combination of our established dislike of Henry and his bullies, the very nature of Patrick’s mental disturbances, their all being underage, and especially the whole scene being witnessed by little Beverly. King may have sensed that this scene might be misinterpreted as disapproving of homosexuality in general, and so perhaps he added the scene of Adrian Mellon’s murder–right in Chapter Two, and as what may feel like an awkward interruption of the flow of the Losers’ story–to establish, from the outset, a sympathetic attitude toward gays, to offset this disturbing scene between Henry and Patrick.

Patrick insists, correctly, that Henry enjoyed the hand job, only further infuriating and threatening the latter. Significantly, and soon before Patrick’s death, Henry threatens to kill him if he tells anyone about the hand job. Patrick doesn’t seem deterred from squealing, so Henry also threatens to tell people about the fridge in which Patrick keeps his tortured animals (page 1069).

We understand that, shortly after Henry has left, Patrick stays in the junkyard, goes to his fridge, and is killed by It in the form of leeches flying out at him. Leeches were Patrick’s greatest fear, because when he was eight, after swimming in a lake and getting leeches on himself, he was screaming as his dad had to pull them off of his stomach and legs (page 1078). Pennywise always uses children’s fears as a weapon against them, since as I’ve said all along, It personifies trauma; but as with all the other killings in Derry, I believe Pennywise’s involvement in them is symbolic.

I believe Henry made good on his threat to kill Patrick, and the leeches flying onto the equally sociopathic victim were symbolic of his trauma. Henry had every motive in the world to kill Patrick. He had no guarantee that Patrick would keep his mouth shut about their homosexual activity, and Henry wouldn’t have been able to bear being thought a ‘queer’ throughout the town, so Patrick had to be silenced as soon as possible.

I suspect that the flying leech attack was really a hallucination. Leeches sucking his blood were really stab wounds from a knife. In his mind, Patrick said, “It isn’t real, it’s just a bad dream…” (page 1079, King’s emphasis). Patrick thought he saw a guy emerge from the junkyard cars, someone who dragged him towards the Barrens, symbol of the unconscious (page 1080). Beverly, watching the whole thing, wasn’t sure at first of what she was seeing. She only saw Patrick thrashing, dancing, and screaming (page 1081). I think it was Henry attacking him with a knife, maybe having hidden in or behind the fridge.

Another thing about leeches is that, of course, they suck, just as Patrick offered to suck Henry off. As sociopathic as Patrick was, he’d have had no trouble understanding how socially taboo fellatio between men was back in the late 1950s, as innocent little Beverly would have also understood it to be; and it’s with this socially conservative attitude that we find much of the content behind finding the masturbation scene so disturbing, not homosexuality in and of itself, as I said above.

So Patrick dying by seeing leeches sucking the blood and life out of his body, rather than Henry’s phallic knife ‘raping’ him, so to speak, is symbolic of him internalizing the especially virulent homophobia of his time…hence, I regard the death by flying leeches as a hallucination instead of taking it literally.

I’d say Beverly didn’t see Henry there at all, just Patrick thrashing about, screaming, and “blundering off down the path” (page 1081) because–just as with her trauma from her father’s sexual abuse–the shock of seeing his murder as it really happened was so intense that her mind, unable to process it, denied and repressed its very existence. Just a little while ago, as she’d watched the boys light their farts, then expose their genitals to her (however unwittingly), and the remaining two boys masturbating, she was terrified of Henry catching her watching them, then chase after her and and rape her (pages 1063-1064).

So it would have been too much for her to see Henry’s phallic knife stabbing into Patrick, ‘raping’ him. Instead, she just saw Patrick thrashing about and screaming.

Beverly ran, Bill’s slingshot in her hand, down the path where Patrick had gone. She saw drops of blood (pages 1083-1084). There were two grooves in the ground (his shoes), along with all the blood, leading from the junked cars to the Barrens, symbol of the unconscious.

She shared the understanding with Patrick that there were “things…in the refrigerator” (page 1084, King’s emphasis) that killed him, the leeches, and therefore It, but I suspect that It, being a metaphorical killer (according to my interpretation), had given her and Patrick a shared hallucination, because the two are sharing a trauma.

Eventually, she found Patrick’s wallet and sneakers (page 1085), the grooves in the ground no longer continuing. The second of the sneakers had blood on the laces. Surely the blood was reminding her of the blood in the sinkhole, a yonic symbol, recall, of her having been injured by her father’s phallic penetrations, something so horrific to her that she’d have repressed the memory of it so thoroughly that she imagined seeing the bullies’ genitals was her first time ever having seen them (page 1054).

It’s fitting in this connection that Beverly would recall her father’s words about her: “Sometimes I worry a LOT.” (page 1086, King’s emphasis). She also worries a lot, having seen such sexual perversity, indecency, and bloody violence. It’s just like what she’s seen at home with her dad. And it’s so awful that she has to repress and blot the worst parts out of her mind.

Several hours later, the other Losers (except Eddie) are with Beverly where she saw Patrick open the refrigerator. It starts raining (page 1087), suggestive of the apocalyptic, Deluge-like rainfall to be associated with the beginning of the story, with George’s death, and the climax, when the adult Losers finally kill It.

This association of the rain with the apocalypse is made stronger when, as it comes down harder, the refrigerator door swings open and the Losers see a message written in blood on the inside of the door. The clown warns them to stop, or he’ll kill them (page 1088). Hail is mixing with the rain, its hardness suggestive of rocks being pelted on the kids in an…apocalyptic…rockfight.

Bill isn’t scared. He’s angry, and he wants revenge for Georgie. He screams a threat to kill It, calling It a “son of a bitch” and a “bastard.”

With Bill’s guilt feelings over the death of George, based on his unconscious wish to be rid of his little brother, as I explained above, we see a sharp contrast with the unfeeling attitude of sociopathic Patrick toward the baby brother he actually killed (pages 1069-1071).

Bill senses that It is scared of them, and he wants his friends’ help to kill It (page 1088). The others promise they’ll help him, and that they won’t chicken out.

They all hug each other. This hugging represents their indispensable solidarity. The sleet fittingly switches back to rain, a weakening of the opposition, like Henry’s gang losing the rockfight.

XXIII: The Bullseye

In Mike’s library, the adult Losers continue telling their stories about their childhood experiences with It, and according to Richie, it’s Ben’s turn. He starts by unbuttoning his shirt and revealing the H that Henry carved in Ben’s belly (page 1091). Beverly immediately thinks of the werewolf in the house on Neibolt Street. It’s fitting that she would make such an association, since as I said above, Henry is the true teenage werewolf of this story.

It’s significant that Ben’s H, just like the cuts on all their hands from the childhood promise to return to Derry if It ever returned, has reappeared on his belly only recently, after years of having vanished (page 1092). These scars are symbolic of the repressed trauma that the Losers have forgotten for so long.

Since it’s the teenage werewolf (Henry, actually) that they have all remembered, now Ben is going to recount the story of melting the silver dollars to make projectiles to hit It with, fired by Bev, the best marksman of the group. Since the werewolf represents Henry, then the silver ‘bullets’ shot at It correspond to the rocks thrown at him, and this confrontation in the house on Neibolt Street is every bit, in its own way, as apocalyptic as the rockfight.

The adult Losers all remember their own personal, unbearable forms of pain. Bill remembers how badly he needed to kill It, to avenge Georgie and–as he’d hoped as a kid–to get his parents’ love, something little Bill had felt starved of. The adults contemplate how Stan killed himself because he couldn’t bear to face his traumas again (page 1093), and Eddie, in his mind, links this inability to face trauma with his own continuation to be ‘sick,’ to use the asthma medicine, even though he’d long known his asthma wasn’t real. The continuation wasn’t just blackmail on his mother, as explained above: it was also a kind of Stockholm Syndrome, a turning around against himself, to avoid confronting the ugly reality that his mother was abusing him.

After young Ben has expertly melted the silver dollars into projectile form, he and the other kids play Monopoly while the projectiles harden in the molds (page 1100). Stan wins the game, and being Jewish, feels free to joke about the money-making stereotype (page 1103). Ben, almost broke in the game, jokingly prays to Jesus to make him Jewish, getting laughs all around.

Bev has been worried about parental disapproval over her not coming home until later, but her father, also not coming home until late after work, won’t know, and her mom is reassured that she isn’t on a date or anything (page 1102).

What we see here, in the making of the silver projectiles and preparation for a confrontation with It-as-werewolf, is not a literal fight against the supernatural, but a symbolic confrontation with their fears and traumas. Bev has to deal with her abusive father. Stan has to deal with antisemites (including Henry) and their ideas about Jews ‘having all the money,’ and he does so by making fun of the stereotype.

The day the Losers all go to the house on Neibolt Street, armed with Bill’s Bullseye slingshot and the two silver projectiles that Ben made, is a hot day in late July (page 1106), just like the hot tension they’re all feeling. They look at the house. Stan thinks the windows look like eyes, presumably judgemental ones; he touches his bird book for good luck (page 1107). “They look like dirty blind eyes.” Eyes that don’t see, yet still seem to judge, something that defies logic to his mind, and is therefore offensive to him.

Beverly imagines the house to have a stink to it, but one you don’t smell with your nose. Again, as with Stan’s observation, the threats of the house don’t make logical sense: they give off a sense of trauma, reminding both of them of their respective traumas, yet there’s also the trauma of Lacan’s Real: not to be verbalized, not to be reasoned out, just uncanny.

Speaking of what, in relation to trauma, doesn’t make sense, Eddie goes for his aspirator, which as we know, he already knows he’s never needed. Adding to the senselessness, though, Richie then asks to use it; then Stan does, and so do all the others (pages 1107-1108). Sometimes we try to soothe ourselves in totally irrational ways, we’re so scared and desperate for comfort.

The kids wonder if any of the adults in Derry can see the supernatural phenomena. They’d love to have an adult who acknowledges It with them, to protect them, since this “isn’t a job for kids.” (page 1108). Sadly, though, few if any adults would acknowledge It, because their trauma is usually too repressed for such acknowledgement to exist.

The kids all go in the house, through the cellar window (pages 1110-1111), for cellars are also symbolic of the unconscious, and the mission to destroy It is, as I’ve said before, symbolic of Shadow Work, a making of the unconscious conscious, to confront and heal repressed trauma.

Richie, as usual, to deal with his own trauma, indulges in his tasteless humour and bad imitations of accents (page 1112). By page 1117, Ben has a better idea for how they can all cope with their fear and pain: they have to stay close together. He knows that It wants them to get lost, to get separated. Indeed, all people in power, sociopaths like It, try to maintain their power by keeping all those threatening their power separated and fighting with each other, when solidarity is key and indispensable to defeating said power structures.

The Losers get a number of scares as they go through the house, including one moment when Bill stutters repeatedly at Stan to use his bird book to ward It away (page 1120). At another point, they get a scare, Ben begging Bev to use the slingshot and shoot at what he thinks is a giant cricket buzzing behind a door (page 1122). It turns out that the noisemaker is just a mooseblower.

Finally, they see the Teenage Werewolf (page 1126). Bev has a silver projectile in the slingshot, ready to shoot, and Mike and Richie yell at her to shoot It (page 1127). She fires and misses. Recall that this werewolf represents Henry, and her firing the silver balls represents the rocks they all threw at him.

More connections between the Teenage Werewolf and Henry come when It attacks Ben, Its claws digging into his torso and spilling his blood all over his pants and sneakers (page 1129), the same way Henry’s knife dug an H into Ben’s belly. The Werewolf also throws Ben into a bathtub, which parallels his fall into the Barrens after Henry cut him.

Again, Richie screams at Beverly to shoot the Werewolf with her last silver projectile, but of course she has to save this shot for a perfect opportunity. She gets that opportunity and shoots, hitting It near Its right eye (page 1130). It screams in pain.

She’s out of silver projectiles, but she holds the slingshot as if she still has one. If It can use fear to gain power over the kids, then they can do the same thing to It. Indeed, the Werewolf’s eyes are full of uncertainty and pain (page 1131). It, too, has blood pouring out if It, like Ben.

It retreats into the drain, changing Its shape so It can fit inside. Its retreat is just like Henry’s when he lost the apocalyptic rockfight. Indeed, from inside the drainpipe, the Losers can hear It echo Henry’s words: “I’ll kill you all!” Such moments as these are significant, for they help prove my point that the real terror of Derry is Henry, the real Teenage Werewolf, and that Pennywise is merely metaphorical, a personification of everyone’s trauma…even Henry’s.

XXIV: Derry: The Fourth Interlude

On the night of April 6th, 1985, as Mike is writing about the history of Derry again, he’s getting drunk (page 1143). He’s thinking about drink and the devil; he even wants to write about it. He’s having rye whiskey. He’s in such a light-headed, high-spirited attitude, he actually refers to himself as “one drunk nigger in a public library after closing”.

This drunken spirit of levity, when he’s supposed to be seriously contemplating the history of Derry and how It has affected the town, is significant in how it reinforces the novel’s theme of adults looking the other way when evil strikes. This looking the other way is also important in the story Mike is about to relate, the massacre in 1905 in the Sleepy Silver Dollar, a beer joint (page 1149).

It’s so ironic that, after just hearing a story about the Losers confronting It in the form of the werewolf and defeating It with projectiles made from melted silver dollars, we now learn of a massacre totally ignored by the patrons of a beer joint called “the Silver Dollar.”

Indeed, Claude Heroux, an axe murderer who was responsible for the massacre, was never brought on trial for what he did there (page 1149). Heroux used his axe on five men who’d worked for William Mueller, who with Hamilton Tracker and Richard Bowie (page 1150) had murdered Heroux’s friends and fellow union organizers, so Heroux wanted revenge. One of the five attacked men escaped and survived, David “Stugley” Grenier.

The murder victims had been playing poker at a table in the back of the room. One of them was Eddie King, named after Stephen King’s middle name, Edwin. Heroux came in the Silver Dollar with a woodsman’s double-bitted axe in his hand (page 1151).

First, he chopped off, at the wrist, the hand of Floyd Calderwood after having poured himself a glass of rye whiskey (page 1152)…Mike’s drink, too, recall; Calderwood would later bleed to death. Then, Heroux stuck his axe in Tinker McCutcheon’s head (page 1153); the axe then went into his back. Eddie fell out of his chair, and Heroux’s axe went deep into his gut (page 1154). Then Heroux hacked off the head of Lathrop “El Katook” Rounds. Stugley had a gun and tried shooting at Heroux; instead, Stugley escaped to the outhouse.

As I said above, what’s striking about this massacre is how all other patrons looked the other way as the killing happened. “The drinking and conversation at the bar went on.” (page 1157) Heroux was led away, and a righteous fury built up over the killings, but this was only later. Heroux was then lynched, him being passive and hardly resisting at all. But why didn’t anyone at least try to stop him at the time, other than Stugley and his gun?

Thoroughgood, the man Mike has asked about the incident, says he saw someone that night near the Silver Dollar, who looked like a clown (page 1158). Thoroughgood saw him while having a beer in a place fittingly called the Bloody Bucket. Drink and the devil.

Mike ponders the idea that it is faith that It really eats (page 1159). It’s the faith of the children It kills that It eats. This is why the adults of Derry always look the other way when It attacks. A child is more capable of an act of faith than any adult, Mike reasons. By killing the faith of children, It can maintain Its power.

The rationalization the patrons of the Silver Dollar have for not even acknowledging the killings is that they wanted to stay out of the politics of the situation–after all, Heroux wanted to avenge the killings of friends who’d wanted to organize a union, which their capitalist bosses would never want. Still, it’s only with the solidarity of the people, the kind of solidarity we’ve seen among the Losers when they confront the werewolf in the house on Neibolt Street, that we can defeat evil of any kind, whether political or supernatural.

Kids like the Losers can have this kind of solidarity that too many adults lose, a solidarity based on faith that good will ultimately prevail. One imagines that Matthew 18:3 had such an idea in mind.

The people at the bar, like the adults of Derry in general, ignored the killings as they happened, but soon enough, their rage led to a lynching, without even any consideration for due process for Heroux, as was the case with the massacre of the Bradley Gang. The victimized Derry residents themselves become cold-blooded killers. The Derry adults go from one inappropriate extreme to another. Neither extreme does anything to solve the problem of It.

And what did both extremes, in the case of Heroux, have in common? Drink and the devil. Getting drunk is a manic defence against facing the depressing–and sobering–reality that one must deal with one’s trauma head on–one must face one’s Shadow, as the faithful Loser kids did in the house on Neibolt Street.

And who is yet another adult, getting drunk on rye whiskey when he’s supposed to be focusing on writing out the history of Derry and Its terrorizing of the town? Mike, an adult Loser.

As Mike is drunkenly contemplating this adult fading-away of faith, he’s also thinking about making those phone calls to all the other adult Losers (page 1160). Will they all even remember their childhood traumas, let alone believe Mike when he tells them that It is back?

These are people who no longer believe in Santa Claus, the Tooth Fairy, or any of those old characters in children’s stories. Why would they still believe in Pennywise?

Pennywise, of course, still believes in the Losers, and It is ready for them (page 1160). It is ready to finish their business in Derry, and if they don’t remember, or believe, or if they even return, but can’t handle It, as the local adults can’t, Mike will be frightened.

XXV: In the Watches of the Night

Ben has finished telling his story about the silver dollar projectiles, and Mike decides the adult Losers should all leave the library, go to their respective accommodations, and get some sleep (page 1163). Their childhood memories are more or less restored.

They’re getting ready to leave, and Beverly screams, seeing blood on her hands, as do the others see on their own hands (page 1165). She wants to know if they’re all committed to defeating It, since the blood on their hands is a reminder of the cuts they had slashed on their hands as kids when they pledged to return as adults to Derry to defeat It. They all hold hands, the blood dripping from them, as they did when they were kids.

There are memories of the idea of the Ritual of Chüd and of the Turtle. The library’s typewriter stars churning out Bill’s “he thrusts his fists…” etc. Ironically, all of these things are elements leading to a defeat of their sources of trauma, elements of good, yet presented to them in a frighteningly supernatural way–bad. The duality of good and bad is appearing once again (pages 1166-1167).

Bill and Beverly leave the library together (page 1168). He’s thinking about Audra, not knowing how close she actually is to them, yet he’s also tempted to have Bev.

As she’s with him, she’s thinking about her father, and how he ‘worried about her a lot.’ (page 1169). She tells Bill of her love/hate relationship with Al, the Kleinian good and bad father all rolled into one…though as we know, that bad father was far more predominant, and only her Stockholm Syndrome/depressive position is making the good father at all visible…the good/bad duality in It appearing once again.

She has revived a memory of her confronting her pathologically jealous father, who suspected her, once again, of hanging around boys…this time, with the Losers, innocently playing tag, or something (page 1170). She went home, and Al was there, not at work.

He slapped her face hard (page 1171), then warned her if she lied, he’d beat her far worse (page 1172). She remembered a time when he’d bathed her. He knew she was in the Barrens with the Losers, but wouldn’t accept the idea that they were just innocently playing there.

He demanded she take her pants off (page 1173), so he could see if she was still “intact.” Now, him wanting to know if she was still a virgin seems to contradict my speculation that he has sexually abused her. One thing we must keep in mind, though, is that abusers are often in total denial of their abuse, and they’ll use projection and gaslighting to manipulate their victims into ‘forgetting’ that the abuse ever occurred. It’s far from impossible to believe Al has penetrated her, then manipulated her into thinking no penetration by him occurred…but by the Losers instead.

Anyone with a modicum of understanding of the concepts of psychoanalysis (nay: anyone with a modicum of common sense!) knows that a man who wants a girl to take her pants off so he can ‘inspect’ her vagina is doing so for one reason, and only for that reason. ‘Concern’ about her status as a virgin is the most transparent of rationalizations. For these reasons, I can conclude, even without any direct evidence, that Al must have sexually abused Beverly.

When “Beverly suddenly understood that she was alone in the apartment with It” (page 1173), she was alone with not only It as Pennywise, but It as a member of Al’s anatomy. She knew she had to defy him. She ran from him just as she’d run from Mrs. Kersh twenty-seven years later (page 1177), for just as Kersh represented Bev’s good and bad mother, so did Al represent her good and bad father…and she couldn’t afford to consider his good side now.

She ran from the man “who had washed her back and punched her in the gut and had done both because he worried about her, worried a lot” (page 1178), the “maleman of her life, delivering a mixed post, from that other sexual state…She saw It there.”

She ran outside, him chasing her, and she hid under a dumpster (page 1181). She had to put up with the “stink of exhaust and diesel fuel mixed with the smell of ripe meat” that gave her nausea (page 1182). One is reminded of that smell that she and her father made between them.

She had to rationalize her defiance of her father. She tried to remind herself that she loved him, that there was a good side to him (page 1184). Guilt over hating him for being this horrible man was making her remember the commandment to honour thy father and thy mother. She tried to reconcile herself to this monster by imagining that her pursuer wasn’t her real father…he was It.

This kind of thinking is the essence of traumatic bonding, Stockholm Syndrome, and a misplaced use of the depressive position. The truly terrifying thing that Beverly had to accept, but couldn’t accept, was that this was the real Al. Yes, he was that crazy. But for a helpless child like her, all she could do was turn it around against herself. It’s so much easier to displace the terror from Dad and put it on the clown, than to accept Dad as he really was.

She and Al weren’t the only ones losing it at that time–so was Henry, especially after having let Patrick touch him in the way he did (page 1185). Henry was seeing “a skeletal grinning face” in the moon. He was hearing ghost-voices from it, too. He was already the Teenage Werewolf for this story’s purposes. The voice, a merging of all the voices, was telling him to do things, and he’d know what to do next when the time came. Next, he heard a voice, not from the moon, but from the sewer, telling him to kill Beverly (page 1186). As we can see, it’s easy to link Pennywise with Henry.

All the adult Losers have left the library, so Mike is there alone, having cleaned up after their drinking (pages 1186-1187). After a while, though, he starts getting the feeling that he is not alone (pages 1190-1191). And soon enough, before Mike even needs to see his visitor in the light or hear his voice, he knows who his intruder is…Henry (page 1192).

Henry asks Mike if he ever hears voices from the moon (page 1193). Mike answers Henry by asking if he’s seen It, to which Henry replies by saying that It killed Victor and Belch.

In this moment, in spite of Henry’s repeatedly calling Mike “nigger,” and in spite of his obvious intention of murdering Mike, the two of them, in acknowledging the existence of It, of the personification of their traumas, are connecting, if only for the moment…here’s that good/bad duality again.

Of course, when Henry threatens to kill Mike and all the other Losers before It can get a chance to kill them Itself, he’s really just projecting his own murderous impulses onto this clown, this figment of everyone’s traumatized imagination. Mike himself implies that Henry and his gang were the true killers back in 1958, when he says, “Maybe you yo-yos did Its work” (page 1194).

Mike also reminds Henry that It, having killed his gang, may also go after Henry himself, perhaps in the form of Frankenstein’s monster, a werewolf, a vampire, the clown…or Henry. Hearing this really gets Henry upset.

Of course, Henry attacks Mike, and they fight (page 1194). Mike gets stabbed, and he’s bleeding to death; he tries calling for help on the phone, but though Henry has left the library, Pennywise’s voice, imitating Henry’s taunts and racial slurs, is making so much noise that Mike can’t hear anyone on the other end of the phone (pages 1199-1200).

After this scene, the novel quickly switches, mid-sentence, from Pennywise taunting adult Mike in the library to teen Henry taunting little Beverly just after she’s run away from Al and hid under the dumpster (page 1200). It’s significant that we’d switch so abruptly from Pennywise imitating adult Henry to teen Henry, since I’ve always interpreted the two, from the murderer’s perspective, to be virtually one and the same person.

We get another sense of Henry’s psychopathic disrespect for law or authority when an old lady comes by in a car to try to stop him from bullying Bev (pages 1200-1201). He runs at her car with a defiance similar to when he was bullying Eddie and broke his arm; Mr. Gedreau, recall, tried to stop Henry, and he got “a good hard push” (pages 1012). Henry was never your everyday bully.

And just as Eddie had experienced an overwhelming plethora of trauma on that day (his fake asthma, Henry breaking his arm, and his mother trying to keep him from his friends), so is Beverly being overwhelmed: like Eddie, she is being bullied and abused by a parent and Henry the psychopath.

After the old woman in the car has been scared off, Beverly kicks Henry in the balls and runs away (page 1202). This section ends as it begins, mid-sentence. Henry tells his gang that Bev has gone “down into the Barrens to be with her asshole…friends,” as adult Beverly finishes the sentence in the next section, which is her with Bill, walking together from Mike’s library at night, the two building feelings for each other.

It’s fitting how this transition shares similar themes. The sexual feelings that Bev is feeling for Bill are linked thematically with the sexual feelings her father was suggesting he had for her, as well as those feelings shared between Henry and Patrick…which she as a little girl witnessed.

Remember also in this connection the emotional incest between Eddie and his mom, which is to be connected with the physical incest implied between Bev and her father. There’s the abuse that Bev’s dad and Eddie’s mom inflicted on them, as well as the abuse Henry has inflicted on them. Even Bill’s lovemaking with Beverly is going to be a form of mistreatment. After all, he’s married.

This is not to say that Bill has completely forgotten about Audra, who recall is a lot closer to him geographically than any of them in Derry know. He totally has Audra on his mind as Bev is charming him. “Cheating. Cheating on my wife” (page 1204, King’s emphasis), Bill’s thinking. In fact, part of his guilt is causing him to see that Audra actually looks like Beverly (page 1203). Maybe this is why he chose Audra to be his wife–transference.

Guilt over Audra doesn’t mean he’s turned off being with Bev, though she’s wondering if he’s having second thoughts (page 1205). In fact, he’s so excited to be getting it on with Beverly that he’s worried he’ll ejaculate too soon, like a little kid. He’s imagining how he felt when the two of them were kids. As for her, she never has second thoughts about cheating on Tom Rogan because she hates the abusive, controlling bastard (page 1206), him also being a link between this section and the last one via Henry.

Bill and Bev make love, and when she climaxes, she suddenly remembers having made love to all of the Losers when they were kids (page 1208). So he has his sexual guilt feelings, and she’s had hers. He’s just betrayed Audra, and Beverly recalls for the first time in so many years having ‘betrayed’ her father by doing with the Losers the exact thing he’d ‘worried a lot’ that she’d do with a bunch of boys.

This realization of hers also ties this scene in with the one several scenes back, of her memory of having run away from her insanely jealous father.

Bev and Bill lie together in bed, in each other’s arms, and she falls asleep, running in a dream (page 1211). This dream of running segues, again mid-sentence, into the next section, which brings us back to her as a little girl, running from Henry and his gang and down into the Barrens to meet with the other Losers in the underground clubhouse (pages 1211-1212).

Though she’s been hoping to see Bill’s bike, Silver, and to meet with him, she finds Ben there instead. She knows Henry and his gang are close behind. She and Ben get in the underground clubhouse, him pulling the trapdoor shut (page 1213). Their closeness together here, though not a sexual one–as was the one with adult Bev and Bill–is nonetheless a parallel of that scene, since Ben has always had feelings for her as strong as Bill has had them.

Her need to feel safe with Ben from Henry also parallels adult Bev’s need to feel safe with adult Bill from It. And since I’ve been equating It with Henry throughout my analysis of this novel, the fact that adult Henry has attacked Mike in the library soon after Bill and Beverly left also strengthens these parallels.

And since the underground clubhouse in the Barrens represents the unconscious mind, adult Beverly’s dream of running segueing into child Beverly running to the clubhouse is also a seamless transition, because dreams are where the unconscious mind really lets itself out. An exploration of the unconscious mind can be therapeutic for trauma; so Bev in bed with Bill, drifting off to sleep, is symbolic of such soothing therapy. Her hiding in the clubhouse with Ben, so Henry can’t get her, is also symbolic of such healing. Getting a form of love from Ben and from Bill in this healing way is also an example of the parallels of both scenes.

Yet another link between, on the one hand, adult Bill and Bev making love, and on the other, Ben and Bev in the clubhouse ‘making love’ in an albeit non-literal sense, is her bringing up Ben’s poem (page 1217), which she calls a haiku, though it deviates a bit from the traditional syllables of five-seven-five in the three lines. At first, Ben is too embarrassed to admit that he’s the one who wrote it for her, fearing that she’d laugh at a fat boy writing romantically to her. Still, she’s touched by his poem, saying she “thought it was beautiful.”

The two of them leave the clubhouse and go up to Kansas Street, ready to run if they see Henry and his gang. She stumbles on a rock in the path and…we have another mid-sentence transition from this section to the next one, which gives us adult Henry on the seminary grounds on Kansas Street at 2:17 AM, just after his attack on Mike in the library (pages 1221-1222).

Apart from Kansas Street and the fall, what links these two sections can be described as dialectical. Instead of the prey falling (Bev), it’s the predator (Henry) who does; instead of day, it’s night. Both predator and prey have been affected by the trauma of It.

She and Ben come up from the Barrens and the clubhouse; adult Henry sees a sewer-grate, to one of the bars of which is tied a balloon (page 1222). As we know, all of these lower, underground places are symbolic of the unconscious, so all three characters are being affected by the Shadow.

Henry is gloating over how he’s hurt “the nigger” better than he got hurt by him. He starts remembering old music, like “Pipeline,” by the Chantays, and “Wipe Out,” the laugh at the beginning of which reminds Henry of Patrick Hockstetter’s, he whom Henry still thinks of as a “queerboy” (page 1223, King’s emphasis). He remembers Patrick having died, “Got greased himself,” and while he doesn’t remember having killed Patrick himself (as I have speculated–see above), his mind during this passage (pages 1222-1223) is so scatterbrained, incoherent, and unstable that one would expect him to omit that detail.

Indeed, he keeps hearing things (a “ka-spanggg sound,” page 1223) and seeing things (Victor’s head). The police go by in a car (page 1224), and he thinks they’ll catch him. He’s not sure if he’s killed Mike, for he notices that an ambulance is going to the library.

He remembers the day back in 1958, the one I just described, when he and his gang lost Bev in the Barrens, after she’d kicked him in the balls (page 1225)–this being yet another link between these two sections…and a link with the section about to come.

He knew the kids hung out in the Barrens, but he never saw a treehouse there (page 1226); nor had Belch or Victor. He remembers searching for Beverly down the Kenduskeag, having picked up a rock and thrown it far down the river…and this is the mid-sentence transition between this and the next section, which brings us back to 1958, with Henry and Victor looking for Beverly in the Barrens.

What links these two sections, beyond the earlier one being adult Henry remembering his time at the river with Victor, and the later one being the time of the memory itself, is the fact that in both sections, Henry’s psychopathic lust for revenge on all the Losers is at an equal level of virulent intensity. He’s hearing the voice from the moon (pages 1227-1228) as a teen, just as he’s hearing that voice as an adult.

Teen Henry is bleeding in the crotch of his pants from Bev’s kick in the balls (page 1226), and adult Henry is bleeding in his gut from his fight with Mike (page 1197). When teen Henry hears the voice from the moon, he feels love. It’s significant that he’s described as having a “clownish smile” (page 1228), for it suggests what I’ve been saying all along–that Henry and Pennywise are one. The latter is a metaphorical mirror of the former.

Part of Henry’s psychopathy is his malignant narcissism. The wounds I referred to in the previous paragraph are symbolic of his narcissistic rage and injury. A psychopath can usually handle physical pain very well; it’s the humiliation he got from that kick in the balls…from a girl (consider 1950s preconceptions about female strength in this connection) that is so painful and intolerable for him. The clown in the moon, being Henry’s metaphorical mirror, is his ideal-I, to which he aspires by ‘killing them all’ (page 1231).

As Henry, Victor, and Belch are waiting for Bev to make an appearance, Henry is thinking about how he found a switchblade that morning (page 1228). He got it in the mail…in a mailbox full of balloons with the faces of all the kids “who had deviled him all this summer, the kids who seemed to mock him at every turn” (page 1229).

These balloons remind us of the one adult Henry sees on the bar of the sewer-grate (page 1222). Just as he as an adult has murderous designs on the Losers, so does he as a teen have those designs on the kid Losers. Pennywise is present during all these murders, either physically or in some symbolic sense, but it’s someone else (those who shot the Bradley gang, Heroux with his axe, etc.) who do the actual killing themselves. I believe it’s actually Henry who’s killed all these kids, and Pennywise just symbolizes the collective trauma of everyone in Derry.

Henry takes the switchblade from out of a package in the mailbox and takes it into his house, where he sees his father, Butch Bowers, lying in their bedroom (page 1229). He holds the switchblade at his dad’s neck for almost five minutes, then he hears the voice from the moon. Henry likes what he hears, so he pushes the button on the knife, making the blade stick “six inches of steel…though Butch Bowers’s neck (page 1230). As we can see, if Henry is crazy and vicious enough to murder his own father, he’s also capable of killing those kids.

He certainly wants to kill all those kids–the voices in his head keep telling him to do so. He and his gang see Ben and Bev coming out the trapdoor from the underground clubhouse, then going up to Kansas Street (page 1232).

Henry knows that It lives somewhere under the city, so in his mind there must be some kind of equivalence between those Losers he hates so much and the clown in the sewers. Though we readers see the former as the protagonists and the latter as the antagonist, it makes sense, from Henry’s point of view, to equate the Losers with It, instead of himself with It.

As I’ve said above, Pennywise in many ways represents the Shadow, or those repressed parts of the personality that, because of trauma, are rejected or disowned. The Shadow isn’t, however, necessarily evil, so equating the Losers with It isn’t all that far-fetched. Henry hates those kids so much because they represent aspects of himself that he hates: weakness, awkwardness, inadequacy, and being a social outcast. Henry thinks that by killing the kids, he’ll destroy and purge himself of similar personality traits in himself that he’ll never accept.

Henry, Victor, and Belch will follow Ben and Bev, but from farther off, so they won’t be seen (page 1233). As the three are following, Henry takes out his switchblade again, and…we come to yet another mid-sentence transition from 1958 to the mid-80s, at 2:30 AM, when adult Henry pushes the button on the switchblade, making the blade pop out (page 1233).

Just as teen Henry is with Belch and Victor when they’re following Ben and Bev, so is adult Henry with his now-dead buddies…in a way. A car pulls up to take Henry to the Derry Town House, the hotel where Bill, Ben, Eddie, Beverly, and Richie are staying (page 1241), and as it turns out, the ghost of Belch is driving the car (page 1235); Henry’s memories of Victor’s death are also there for the ride (page 1239).

The car Henry is being taken in is a 1958 Plymouth Fury, a red and white car that his dad wanted to own. It’s interesting how his father’s name was Butch, while the ghost driving the car is Belch. Henry isn’t just taking a trip to where he plans to be guilty of murder; he’s also going on a guilt trip.

Just as Henry is guilty of having murdered his father when he was a teen, he as an adult is reflecting on his guilt over having abandoned Belch and Victor in the sewers, where the two died, while chasing the Losers. His acknowledging his responsibility over the deaths of his two friends is a rare moment for this normally unfeeling psychopath. The fact that his memory of having murdered his father is being linked with his friends’ deaths is intensifying his guilt all the more.

As ghost-Belch is driving Henry to the Derry Town House, the latter is trying to apologize to the former for failing to help him (pages 1237-1240) in the sewers. Belch largely doesn’t reply, though. I’d say it’s safe to assume that Henry, in his delusional state, is just imagining the car and ghost-Belch as the driver. Since the Derry Town House is the only surviving hotel in the Derry area (page 1240), he can deduce that this is probably where at least some, if not all, of the adult Losers coming back for a visit are staying, so he knows where to go to strike next and continue getting his revenge.

With his urge to right the wrongs he feels have been done to him, though, also comes the sense that he himself has done his share of wrong. Hence his ride to the hotel comes in a car that his victim of patricide wanted, driven by a friend he shafted in the sewers. Here’s the good/bad duality again: it’s ‘good’ from his point of view that he’s getting a lift to the hotel; but it’s also ‘bad’ that his trip is a guilt trip. It’s also bad that getting to hotel, to continue his murder spree, has been made easier, but it’s also good that, on at least some level, he’s beginning to understand what a bad person he is.

When he arrives at the Derry Town House, the first of the Losers that he decides to attack is Eddie, who is in Room 609, up at the top, then he’ll work his way down (page 1242). At the door, Henry rings the bell and pretends to be a bellboy with a message from Eddie’s wife (page 1243). It’s ironic that Eddie’s potential killer has a message from overprotective Myra.

Henry has his knife ready, by his cheek, as Eddie is fumbling with the chain to unlock and open the door (page 1244). Henry’s ready to plunge the knife into Eddie’s throat. The door is opened and Eddie…another mid-sentence transition occurs here, and we’re transported back to 1958, and little Stan and Richie are each eating a ‘Rocket‘ on a push-up stick.

Eddie’s running up to catch up with them, and he wants a lick on Richie’s Rocket. We can see a link between the sections in how, on the one hand, adult Eddie is expecting a message from Myra, his ‘sweet’ wife, while on the other, little Eddie is expecting a taste from Richie’s sweet food. In the end, adult Eddie is about to get a “push-up stick” of a surprising kind and little Eddie–with his broken arm–is going to join the other Losers in confronting Henry and his gang to protect their underground clubhouse.

Stan offers Eddie the rest of his Rocket, and when Richie says, “Jews don’t eat much,” this begins a discussion among the three about religion, about Judaism as contrasted with Catholicism, in particular (pages 1245-1248), and what’s odd about religions in general.

There’s a comparison between Jews being forbidden to eat the flesh of pigs (though Stan and his family eat it, anyway), and Catholics being forbidden to eat meat on Fridays (page 1246). This leads to a discussion about a bad Catholic boy who stole some of the communion bread and took it home. He threw it into the toilet bowl, and the water turned as red as blood (page 1247), the Blood of Christ, meaning what the boy had done was an act of blasphemy, and his immortal soul was now in danger of Hell.

This story is Eddie’s, and ever since hearing it, he’s never enjoyed communion. Blood in the toilet, of course, reminds us of the blood in the bathroom sinkhole in Beverly’s home. We also see in Eddie’s story that good/bad duality: Christ’s blood is good in itself, but a frighteningly unnatural thing to see in a toilet bowl.

Then Bill and Mike arrive on their bikes (page 1248). Bill is wondering if any of them has seen Ben or Beverly. They all go over to the Barrens (page 1249). They see Ben and Bev running toward them and shouting (page 1250).

Eddie is shocked at how filthy she looks, not knowing about her hiding under a dumpster so her father wouldn’t find her. There’s no way she’ll tell them about what her father was doing (recall in this connection the association between the blood in the toilet and in the sinkhole), but she has to warn them about Henry, his gang, and his new knife. In this, again, we see a connection between this section and the last one (i.e., Henry about to stab adult Eddie in his hotel room).

As they all are contemplating the danger of facing Henry again, they each think about a traumatic incident associated with It: Richie, the moving photo of George; Bev, her dad and the wildness in his eyes; Mike, the bird; Ben, the mummy; etc. (page 1251) Still, Bill insists they all go down and defend the clubhouse.

What’s interesting is that, as the kids are about to go down to the clubhouse, a thunderstorm is beginning on a day when, according to what Ben has seen in the newspaper, it was supposed to be “hot and hazy” (page 1253). This storm suggests association with the flooding rain at the beginning of the story, and the Deluge-like, destructive storm at the end. Once again, the Losers’ confrontation with Henry and his gang will be…apocalyptic.

As the kids are going down, Eddie starts getting the feeling that they’re being watched (page 1259). He looks around nervously. He…and another mid-sentence transition takes us from 1958 back to the mid-1980s, with adult Eddie opening his hotel door to see “a monster from a horror comic”–adult Henry. It’s hardly necessary to explain how this section is linked to the last one.

Eddie slams the door shut, hitting Henry’s forearm and making the knife fall to the floor (page 1255). Eddie kicks it away, so it goes under the TV. Henry uses his weight to shove the door open, making Eddie, of a much lighter build, fall back on the bed. Henry is calling him “fag” and “babyfag,” with revenge on his mind for a rockfight he still hasn’t forgotten about.

So a struggle ensues, and Eddie throws a Perrier bottle at Henry’s face, cutting into his right cheek and right eye (page 1256), then he uses the jagged edge of the bottle to cut Henry’s left hand. Later, Henry falls on the bottle, impaling himself on it.

Henry dies, and Eddie goes for the telephone for help. It’s ironic how “babyfag” has won the fight against the bully, with no help from anybody else. Once again, we’re reminded of how bullies like Henry are the real weaklings and cowards, projecting their inadequacies onto their victims, who often show surprising amounts of strength when they need to. In spite of his ‘mama’s boy’ upbringing, Eddie can kick ass.

He calls the desk clerk of the hotel and asks to be connected with Bill (page 1258). Bill answers his phone with a stammer. He tells Bill about the fight with Henry, and that he had the same knife as he’d used on that day when they, as kids, went into the sewers. Bill replies with another mid-sentence transition back to 1958, in the Barrens, with young Bill finishing the sentence, telling Eddie to get Ben (page 1259).

They can hear the thunder in the sky, and they’ve found the trapdoor to the clubhouse open, not the way Ben and Bev left it. Bill senses that Henry expects them to fight, and to be killed by him. By imagining that both Henry and It expect the Losers to stand and fight, Bill is implying he understands that Henry and It are one and the same, at least from a murderer’s point of view (page 1260).

Bill says they should all go to the pumping station, then he sees Victor, and a number of rocks are thrown all at once at the kids (page 1264). Bill gets a rock in the cheek. Henry is happy to get his revenge for the rockfight.

Bill insists that the pumping station is the way in, the way to It. Ben knows where to go, and he must take the Losers there (page 1265). The others are hesitating to go, but Henry et al are throwing rocks at them. A crack of thunder and a flash of lightning give them all a scare, Bill is running to the river, and a rock almost hits his face, but hits Ben in the ass instead. Henry gets a good laugh from that. The rain is coming down hard now.

After Mike throws a piece of scrapwood, hitting Henry on the forehead with it, all the Losers run to find the pumping station (page 1266). The Kenduskeag’s water seems higher, the rain-dark sky looks dangerously grey, and lightning is flashing again (page 1267).

With Henry’s gang chasing them, they reach the pumping station, and struggle to get the lid off (page 1269). They get inside and go down to where the sewers are, where George’s boat went almost a year before (page 1277), led by Bill, with Henry’s gang not far behind, Henry having warned them that they’ll die down there (page 1272). The Losers are also thinking about the ritual of Chüd (page 1276).

What’s interesting about the Losers’ current predicament is how they’re all running away from Henry’s gang, yet they’re also running straight into Its lair. I’ve been equating the murderous intent of Henry with that of It. What Bill is leading his friends into seems foolish on the surface, but looked at more deeply, his intentions start to make more sense, especially if you equate Henry with It the way I do.

The only way the kids will be free of their trauma, personified by Pennywise, is if they face It. Henry and his gang of bullies know themselves so slenderly that they’ll never be able to face their own traumas and therefore be freed of them. Bill is not only getting his friends into a situation where, if they’re successful, they can be freed of their trauma, but also they can wipe out at least some of their bullies.

Bill is luring Henry, Victor, and Belch into a trap, from which the latter two won’t get out alive, and from which Henry won’t get out sane. Bill is probably not even the slightest bit conscious of what this chase into the sewers will do to the Losers’ tormentors (after all, as I’ve said all along, the sewers are among those subterraneous places that symbolize the unconscious mind in this novel), but this is exactly what it will do, nonetheless.

In selfishly wanting his friends to risk their lives helping him get revenge for the murder of his little brother, the murder he feels so guilty about, Bill is also–in wiping out Henry’s gang–selflessly and heroically saving the town from a group of violent psychopaths. This is yet another example of the good/bad duality of It. Bill’s self-centered lust for revenge is leading to the greater good of all.

Please wait for Part VI.

Stephen King, It, New York, Pocket Books, 1986

Analysis of ‘It,’ Part III

Here are links to Parts I and II, if you haven’t seen them yet.

XI: Georgie’s Room and the House on Neibolt Street

Officer Nell won’t get the boys in trouble if they tear down the dam (page 424). In his intervention, we can see more duality of good and bad. It’s good that he put an end to the unsanitary dam, but the building of the dam, as I said towards the end of Part II, was a symbolic controlling of their fears and of the turbulent unconscious, and so tearing it down is a symbolic taking-away of that controlling and mastery of fear.

Also, Stan is about to talk about his scary experience of It, but Officer Nell’s interruption stops Stan from benefitting from the same talk therapy that Bill, Ben, and Eddie have just enjoyed. Perhaps the lack of that talk therapy at that time has contributed to a bottling up of pain that ultimately leads to Stan’s suicide.

In Eddie’s case, knowing of the filth in the dammed-up water has only reinforced his fear of germs and his aversion to the dark world down under, symbolic of the unconscious and the Shadow. He’s never fully faced these fears, and so when he finally does face them in the climax, his still-relative weakness contributes to his death, in spite of how brave he eventually becomes.

Adult Richie is driving into Derry, and he has his own flashbacks about his childhood experiences there. These include the dam in the Barrens that Mr. Nell wanted torn down, as well as his being in Bill’s house, in Georgie’s room to see the photo album, going to the cinema to see horror films (including the Wolf-man), and an experience with Bill at the house on Neibolt Street.

When Richie and Bill are about to go into the Denbrough house, there’s a moment of contemplation about Bill’s troubled relationship with his parents, a sense that they preferred Georgie over him (page 429). The love he received seemed to be only because Georgie was also there, and now that Georgie is dead, the love for Bill is dead, too.

This favouring of Georgie is the basis of Bill’s sibling jealousy, and with his little brother’s death, Bill feels that he’s to blame for it, since he’d have had unconscious desires to get rid of the little boy. Bill knows he was less than an ideal brother to George, and they’d had plenty of fights.

On the day George dies, Bill is too sick to have a fight with his brother. Significantly, he was dreaming about a…turtle…(page 429) which he later forgets about. In the unconscious world of his dreams, Bill sees an image of the good crawling thing, while also in his unconscious, there’s the wish of a bad crawling thing to take away the brother who’s been stealing his parents’ love from him. Hence, Bill’s guilt. Hence, also, the dialectical relationship between the good crawling thing and the bad one.

An interesting choice of words is used to describe Bill’s and Richie’s entrance into the former’s house: they go in “like ghosts” (page 431). They’re about to experience the ghost of Georgie (or so it seems to them), but they themselves are the real ghosts, apparently. The point is that the experience of the supernatural, of Pennywise in the form of Georgie’s movie-like photos, is a projection of the two boys’ own Shadows, Bill’s in particular, due to his guilt over George’s death.

When the two boys look at one of the photos, Bill puts his fingers on the picture, whose image looks alive, like a movie, and his fingers go into the picture. Inside, the tips of his fingers are slashed, Richie yanks Bill’s arm away to get his fingers out of the photo, and they’re bloody and in pain. This injury parallels the ripping-off of George’s arm (pages 439-440).

And just as Georgie’s torn-off arm is a symbolic castration, so are Bill’s lacerated fingers. The experience is a reinforcing of Bill’s guilt over the unconscious jealous wish to be rid of George. The symbolic castration, the Lacanian interpretation of which I gave in Part I, represents Bill’s traumatic leaving of the narcissistic Imaginary, where he’d have his parents focusing all on him, and entering the social, linguistic world of the Symbolic, where he’s just one of many people sharing attention with each other. And as I said Part I, his stuttering–a difficulty with language–represents a difficulty fitting in with society, a difficulty entering the Symbolic, hence, Bill’s being in the Losers Club.

Richie, Ben, and Beverly going to watch horror movies at the cinema, and running into Henry Bowers and his gang, fits together with Richie’s and Bill’s scary experience at the house on Neibolt Street in one crucial way…the werewolf.

One of the films the three Losers watch together is I Was a Teenage Werewolf. When Henry is bullying the Losers, he’s only twelve, but as an adolescent, he’s close enough to being an early teen. He can be associated with the teen werewolf in a number of other ways, apart from his viciousness.

It’s noted that the “Teenage Werewolf was somehow scarier […]…perhaps because he also seemed a little sad. What had happened wasn’t his own fault.” (page 461) He “turned into the werewolf [because he] was full of anger and bad feelings…Henry Bowers was just overflowing with bad feelings…” (pages 461-462). Henry is abused by his drunken, PTSD-afflicted father, Butch, so we can see how bullying begets bullying.

We later learn, in the twelfth chapter, “Three Uninvited Guests,” that Henry, blamed for Pennywise’s killings in the late 1950s and convicted for the murder of his father, is–as an adult–in a mental hospital, where he hears voices “coming from the moon…A ghost moon.” (page 791) In this, we can see more associations between Henry and the Teenage Werewolf.

Since Henry and his gang go after Richie, Ben, and Beverly after they all watch the horror movies at the cinema, which of course include the werewolf one, we can see how this ties in with Richie’s and Bill’s experience at the house on Neibolt Street.

When Pennywise presents himself to the kids, it’s in the form of their greatest fears, whatever pushes their emotional buttons the hardest. In Eddie’s case, what crawled out of the cellar window of the house on Neibolt Street was a hobo leper, a personification of disease, something his mother has conditioned him to be terrified of. In Richie’s case, what appears there is the teenage werewolf.

This form is what terrifies Richie because it is associated with his encounter with Henry Bowers, the real teenage werewolf, as it were, who not only terrorizes the Losers, but who will also go lunatic in the lunatic asylum when he’s an adult. As I’ve said previously, Pennywise is the killer in the abstract, metaphorical sense: It personifies trauma. Henry is blamed for all the killings of the late 1950s in Derry, and I’d say perhaps he really is the killer in the physical sense, with Pennywise’s presence in the killings as an allegorical concept. After all, Henry is psychopathic enough to be the real killer. The situation is similar to the gay-bashing killing of Adrian Mellon: the homophobes killed him, while Pennywise was simply present when it happened.

And once again, some good accompanies all of this bad in how Richie and Bill experience the horror in Georgie’s bedroom and on Neibolt Street together. They can validate each other’s trauma and strengthen each other by bonding together over it. Watching the horror films together is also a bonding over trauma, if only in a symbolic sense.

XII: Cleaning Up

We next come to Beverly’s story, and how she is on her way to Derry after fighting her way out of the clutches of her abusive husband, Tom Rogan. I mentioned previously how her relationship with this man is a repeat, as object relations theory explains, of her relationship with her abusive father, Al, just as Eddie’s relationship with his obese, overprotective wife is a repeat of his relationship with his obese, overprotective mother.

In the parallels between Tom and Al vis-à-vis Bev, we ought to ponder how her relationship with her husband is, by definition, obviously sexual; and so just as Eddie’s relationships with his wife and mother are, in one sense or another, sexual (i.e., Oedipal with his mother), so are there disturbing implications about Beverly and her abusive father. While it’s understood that Al’s physically abusive with her, and we never come across explicit evidence of sexual abuse, there are a number of passages that suggest that the abuse is more than must physical and psychological.

All abuse, whether physical, sexual, or psychological, is a form of psychological abuse, because all abuse, at its core, is about the abuser’s wish to have power and control over the victim. It shouldn’t be all that surprising that a father wishing to dominate his daughter, especially a father that ‘worries’ about her being with boys, would want to exercise that dominance sexually, even if on only one or two occasions. When it comes to rape, one time is enough to be traumatizing.

In his chapter-by-chapter review of It, Gabe Rodriguez agrees with me that “it’s implied that [Al] has lust for his daughter”. His ‘worrying’ about her with other boys implies sexual jealousy, just like Humbert Humbert with Lolita. We may not see examples of sexual abuse between Al and Bev because such trauma is so deeply repressed, and so painful, that it never resurfaces as such in her memories.

One thing to remember about repression, though, is that it does return to consciousness, though in an unrecognizable form. Bill’s unconscious wish to eliminate Georgie comes back in the form of moving photos. Eddie’s fear of sickness resurfaces in the form of the leper. Richie’s fear of Henry returns as the teenage werewolf. And the trauma of repressed memories of sexual abuse for Bev could conceivably return in the form of a bloody sinkhole (pages 509-512)

The drain in the bathroom sink in Bev’s home can easily be understood as a yonic symbol (with its “slightly fishy smell”–page 510). Voices calling out for help from it can be understood, symbolically speaking, as projections of Beverly’s own wish to cry for help. Blood spraying out of the sinkhole (page 512) could represent menstrual blood (after all, soon after this incident, Bev sees herself in the same bathroom mirror and notices the growth of her breasts–she’s approaching womanhood–page 519), or it could be the blood of torn vaginal walls after one of her father’s painful intrusions. In this indirect sense, then, the bloody sink could be a resurfacing of the repressed trauma of a sexual assault, too painful to be remembered explicitly.

There are a number of passages suggesting Al’s sexual abuse of Beverly. Here’s an example: “He did not drink, he did not smoke, he did not chase after women. I got all the women I need at home, he said on occasion, and when he said it a peculiar secretive smile would cross his face…They take care of me, and when they need it, I take care of them.” (page 513, King’s emphasis)

Of course, with abuse also comes traumatic bonding, as is the case when Al shows Bev love and affection. When he hugs her, she feels her love for him, knowing he hits her only when she ‘deserves’ it. (page 516) The cycle of abuse, involving a swinging pendulum of nice and nasty, creates confusion in the victim’s mind: is being hit a form of love? Is the sexual abuse a form of love? The abusive father can manipulate his daughter’s Oedipal feelings for him in these physical and sexual forms of abuse, reinforcing his control through her love of him.

Since, apart from the other Losers, no one other than Bev sees the blood in the bathroom sink, she uses the fake story of having seen a spider crawling about there (page 523). Given what we know of Its actual appearance, the choice of a spider is an interesting one to hide what she’s actually seen. Once again, unconscious trauma resurfaces in different forms.

Another hint of sexual abuse comes when Bev’s mother, Elfrida, asks her if her father ever touches her (page 523). The little girl acts surprised at the question, but “God, her father touched her every day.” (page 523, King’s emphasis) Bev is haunted by the question for a while, as it reappears in King’s idiosyncratic use of parenthetical interruptions in the narrative: “(does he ever touch you)” and “(does he)” (page 523, King’s emphasis)

Recall that Al certainly does “(worry an awful lot)” about Bev with other boys, and this is because he’s projecting his lust onto them, and projection is one of the commonest defence mechanisms. That her mother calls his punitive anger “blue devil” should give you a good idea why blue (second meaning given here) is the colour.

Bev has sexual experiences with all the Losers. That she does this in the ‘innocent’ late 1950s is surprising enough; that she does this as a preteen is, at least, bordering on shocking, if not lapsing into that. That she may have endured sexual abuse from her father, the resulting trauma of which would give her a kind of ‘slut’ complex, would thoroughly explain why she gives herself to all of the boys so easily and so young…in the 1950s. If a girl is made to believe she’s a slut through rape, she may act that way, out of no fault of her own.

Because of Al’s suspicions of her with other boys, he demands that she take her pants off so he can check if she’s still a virgin (page 1173). Examining if she’s still “intact” or not, of course, is just an excuse for him to get her pants off. That alone is too terrifying for the little girl to bear. When his hands are on her, they are “gentle. And that was somehow scariest of all.” (page 1176) Small wonder she runs away from him afterward.

To get back to the part of the story with the bloody sink, though, we learn that not only do the other Losers believe Beverly about the blood, since only they see it other than her, but they also help her clean it up, hence the name of Chapter 9. Once again, in the form of the kids’ solidarity and mutual validation of Bev, we can see goodness mixed in with all of the bad, that duality that pervades It in so many different forms, as well as in the traumatic bonding of Al with Bev. Showing her love and affection is good in and of itself, but his use of those positive feelings to manipulate and control her is all the more evil.

With the solidarity and validation the boys give Beverly, now Stan can finally tell them of his scary experience of It at the Standpipe (pages 542-553). After he tells them of his experience, and of fending off It by calling out the names of various birds from his bird-book 9page 553), he muses about what is worse than being frightened–being offended (page 557).

This sense of being offended gives us a clue as to why Stan is the one who kills himself. “You can live with fear…Maybe not forever, but for a long, long time. It’s offense you maybe can’t live with…” (page 558, King’s emphasis). The supernatural events offend a sane person’s sense of order, in Stan’s thinking. These things are shocking because they are so inexplicable; they’re traumatic because one can’t process the experiences. Stan is contemplating the indescribable, ineffable, undifferentiated world of Lacan’s Real. He can’t bear to endure it again as an adult, so he kills himself in his bathtub.

XIII: Derry: the Second Interlude

In “Derry: the Second Interlude,” Mike recalls the fire at the Black Spot in 1930. The Black Spot was a nightclub essentially for black soldiers from a nearby army base. It was burned down by the Maine Legion of White Decency, a secret society of white supremacists like the Ku Klux Klan (page 576).

Mike asks his father, William, about the historical background of the fire, and while the obvious racism behind the motive to burn the Black Spot isn’t to be denied, his father insists that there was more to the fire than just prejudice against blacks. In William’s opinion, “the Legion of White Decency was just another seed” (page 577), and it seemed to him “that bad things, hurtful things, do right well in the soil of this town,” Derry (page 578). What’s implied here with the “seed” planted in the “soil” is that William intuits the presence of Pennywise.

What’s linked to the racism behind the Black Spot fire is the racism of Henry Bowers and his father, Butch, against specifically the Hanlon family. Apart from hurling the usual racial slurs at Mike, we learn that Henry–at the age of ten and thus already demonstrating his psychopathy–killed Mike’s dog, Mr. Chips. Butch, who as Mike’s father observes, “was never right after he came back from the Pacific” (page 582), took a lot of his pain out on blacks and “nigger lovers,” and even killed a number of William’s chickens (page 583). Both fathers were farmers, but since Will Hanlon’s farm was more successful, Butch envied him, feeling humiliated that a black farmer had outdone him.

A similar envy could be seen in the white racists’ reaction to the fixing-up of the Black Spot, a bunch of blacks transforming the originally filthy dump of a place into a successful night club (page 594). The plan to fix up the place was suggested by Pfc. Dick Hallorann, also a character from The Shining.

Dick’s “shining” abilities helped him to save Will and several other club goers from the fire, going “back toward the bandstand…toward the fire” (page 602). He’s called crazy for wanting to go that way, but this is another interesting incidence of that duality of good mixed with bad that pervades It, just as when adult Bill with catatonic Audra on his bike, Silver, snaps her out of it only by risking death with her as they race around at the end of the novel. Dick similarly saves Will and the others by facing the fire, then going out a window (page 603).

Outside the burning nightclub, Will saw something disturbingly unusual, yet he hesitates to tell his son what it was. Mike senses correctly what it was by synchronicity, and while afraid to have his suspicions confirmed, he must know the truth, just as Lot’s wife had to see the burning pair of sinful cities, a sight that killed her (pages 608-609).

His father saw a giant bird, the same bird Mike saw four years earlier (page 609). Naturally, Mike gets a chill from the revelation of this synchronicity. We also learn that the bird didn’t hover. “It floated.” (page 609) There were also “big bunches of balloons tied to each wing,” an obvious reference to Pennywise.

Because Mike is convinced that “It’s come again” (page 609), he’s written everything down “in a kind of frenzy” page 610), his desperate attempt to use writing therapy to soothe his relapse into his old childhood traumas. Though he’s worn himself out with writing all night, and even slept with his notebook and pen on the table there in front of him, he wakes up “feeling free, somehow…purged of that old story” (page 610).

Since It attacks people based on their fears (Bill’s guilt over Georgie, Richie’s Henry/werewolf association, Bev’s bloody sink/damaged yoni association, Eddie’s fear of sickness and leper perverts), we can see why Mike shudders at the thought of the big bird, and how his father saw the same unsettling sight. We eventually learn of Mike’s instinctive fear of birds from an incident when he was a baby of only six months old, and a crow was pecking at him (page 1318). As for his father’s experience of the big bird, perhaps it was linked to the killing of his chickens. After all, both that killing and the deaths from the Black Spot fire were race-related.

And just to complete Mike’s relapse into his old trauma state in the mid-1980s, he sees a balloon tied to his reading lamp, filled with helium. A picture of his face is on it, with blood pouring out from where his eyes are supposed to be. The crow got at him after all, apparently. (page 610)

XIV: The Reunion

The adult Losers are all in Derry, and they meet with Mike in a Chinese restaurant for dinner. Ben tells of how he lost the weight as an adolescent and kept it off. Richie’s trash-mouth goes off constantly, and the others say “Beep-beep” to him as a kinder, gentler way to tell him to shut up. Fortune cookies are served for dessert, and they’ll make quite a spectacle soon enough.

Since everyone remembers the childhood events only very vaguely still, Mike suggests they all break up and go to whichever places in Derry they remember best (except the Barrens, which I imagine might bring up unconscious traumas they won’t yet be ready to deal with)…in order to jog their memories.

Finally, they get around to eating the fortune cookies. Since Richie uses humour to deal with his trauma, he jokes about reading a fortune that says he’ll “SOON BE EATEN UP BY A LARGE MONSTER. HAVE A NICE DAY.” (page 682) Instead of getting another “Beep-beep” from the others, they all laugh. A bit of appropriate humor can definitely ease the tension a bit.

Bill is the first, however, to realize that breaking open their cookies to read their fortunes is a bad idea. Nobody has gone for a fortune cookie until Mike passes around the bowl of them. Everyone, at least unconsciously, knows that his fortune in Derry cannot be a good one, hence the delay in touching the cookies. When Beverly grimaces upon opening hers, Bill realizes that, in spite of everyone’s huge lacunae of forgotten traumatic memories in Derry, “Somehow, some part of us still remembers…everything.” (page 683) No memory is forgotten: it’s all just repressed, pushed back into the unconscious.

Beverly sees blood spurting up from her fortune cookie, an obvious reference to the bloody sinkhole incident. Note the choice of words in the description on page 683 (my emphasis): the blood was “a bright red that sank in [the white tablecloth] and then spread out in grasping pink fingers.” Those “grasping pink fingers” could have only been Al’s.

Eddie sees “a huge bug…pushing its way out of his fortune cookie” (page 683), this bug being an obvious reference to his fear of germs, of bugs. Bill notices it, and understands it to be “some sort of terribly mutated cricket.” Notions of disease or mutation always link with the fear of not being healthy, of not being normal. Not being normal means being vulnerable to bullying (as a Loser), just like being vulnerable to disease.

Richie sees an eye in his fortune cookie. He’s staring at it “in a kind of sickened leer” (page 683). The “human eyeball stared with glazed intensity” right back at him. Since Richie is a DJ and a comedian (of sorts), he’s going to be sensitive to what his audience thinks of him as a performer. Any eyes looking at him with criticisms, ranging everywhere from the most trivial “Beep-beep” to the most scathing of them, will be difficult for him to deal with. Also, that staring eye is a projection of his own leers, of his own staring, a reminder that Trashmouth is quite the critic himself.

Ben sees teeth in his fortune cookie, and his instinctive reaction is to throw the cookie across the table (page 684). The teeth must have triggered in his unconscious his childhood overeating habits; the teeth are a mocking mirror reflecting his former size. Their biting nature, the way “they rattled together,” may have also prompted memories of Henry’s digging knife.

Bill never opens his fortune cookie: he’s too busy trying to stop Beverly from screaming at the sight of the insect from Eddie’s cookie. Bill does, however, “see its sides moving slowly in and out–bulge and relax…” (page 684). Could those movements be from a winking eye, by chance? “It had swelled like some unimaginable boil which was filling with pus. And still it pulsed slowly in and out.” (page 686) Is it a tiny heart?

As for Eddie’s insect, it looks as if it’s dying. As an association with disease and dying, the cricket looking that way is a fitting finishing touch to Eddie’s fears.

Bill knows they must all calm down to avoid making a scene, since Rose, their server, will soon be back and, not seeing any of the supernatural frights, will think they’re all crazy.

After Rose is finished asking how their meal was, Bill finally gets an idea as to what is in his cookie. He sees “a leg poking blindly out of his fortune cookie,” scraping at his plate (page 686). A leg is a limb: seeing this, and none of the rest of the tiny body, isn’t all that much dissimilar to the arm of a little boy that’s separated from the rest of his body.

Then Richie looks at Bill’s cookie and sees “a great grayish-black fly…slowly birthing itself from the collapsing remains of his cookie.” (page 686) It’s as though, through the association of bugs and disease, that Richie, Bill, and Eddie are sharing the same fear, giving each other mutual validation of that fear.

As Bill remarks after Rose leaves, it’s “a mutant fly” (page 687), further reinforcing the associations with Eddie’s experience of the “mutated cricket.” As members of the Losers Club, they all feel like mutants of a sort–sick, odd, different, and thus vulnerable to the bullying of people like Henry. Bill recalls, through this fly in the cookie the old short story of “The Fly,” later made into a movie. “The story scared the bejesus out of [Bill]” (page 687). The scientist in that story, with his head and hand swapped with those of a fly, felt similarly alienated from the world as the Losers do.

The fly from the cookie grows into the size of a sparrow, Bill covers it with his napkin, and Bev needs to leave the room to throw up. The fears are inside all of them, and they need to get these fears out of themselves, which is what her vomiting represents. A growing bug is Bill’s growing fear, also an idea he has for a new horror novel: writing about the fear gets it out of him, too.

Speaking of getting out, Mike rightfully advises them all to leave the restaurant right away. Bill knows It is up to Its old tricks, using the Losers’ inner fears to scare them all out of Derry.

XV: Walking Tours

As Ben is on his way to the old library, he’s going over childhood memories, having them come back to him at first in fragments. The silver dollar. Chüd (page 692). What did these things mean, though?

In the library now, he applies for a library card. He starts hearing a voice–only he can hear it. The only thing the woman making his library card notices that’s strange is his behaviour, including his perspiration (page 702).

As she’s off to type up the information on his card, he looks up and sees Pennywise on top of a staircase (page 703), “looking down at him…[with] a killer’s grin.” Ben knows he can’t react to what only he sees and hears there, for fear that everyone else in the library will think he’s crazy. This, of course is perfectly true, for Pennywise, properly understood, is a monster not of the physical world, but of the mind. It’s trauma personified.

Pennywise keeps calling Ben to go up the stairs to meet It face to face, but Ben knows he’ll want to face the clown by going down into the darkness, the unconscious of the sewers, where It “won’t want to see me…We’re going to kill you.” (page 704, King’s emphasis)

Naturally, Pennywise knows what Ben’s thinking (about killing him), because Pennywise is in Ben’s thoughts. The clown is taunting Ben in Richie’s “Pickaninny Voice,” warning him to get out of Derry while he still can (page 704).

It’s worthwhile to consider why King chose to have It present Itself primarily as a clown, of all forms. Apart from what we know that children often find clowns frightening, there’s also the fact that clowns are supposed to be funny. Since so much of the Losers’ childhood trauma is based on having suffered bullying (hence, their collective name), we should consider the juxtaposition of a source of terror with one of humour.

Apart from terrorizing his victim, a bully will commonly use humour in his belittling of his victim. Henry calling young, overweight Ben “Tits” (a reference, of course, to his ‘boy-boobs’) is meant to elicit laughter from the rest of Bowers’s gang. Bullies fancy themselves comedians, making fun of their victims. Narcissistic, emotionally abusive parents are also clowns, properly understood.

On top of this, Pennywise does an imitation of Richie, of all people, a guy who fancies himself a clown, of sorts. It’s mocking one of Ben’s friends, which can make Ben empathize with Richie; but also, since the clown is doing Richie’s Pickaninny Voice, a stereotype of black people, this mockery can also be understood as belittling a friend of both Ben’s and Richie’s…Mike.

Part of the reason the Losers keep saying “Beep-beep” to shut Richie up is because his inappropriate, trash-mouth humour reminds them, on at least an unconscious level, of the taunting humour of bullies like Henry. Richie’s humour also used to provoke Henry himself back when they were all kids, so his big mouth was potentially dangerous for them.

Pennywise mocking Richie before Ben, thus, is like holding a mirror up to his face, telling one of the Losers that, in a way, they’re just as bad as It. After all, he wants to kill It, doesn’t he? It even accuses Ben of killing the children in Its screaming, taunting voice (page 702), a clear case of projection on Its part.

Eddie’s wandering around Derry leads him to the Tracker Brothers’ Truck Depot. These brothers, two life-long bachelors named Phil and Tony, also had an immaculately clean, white mid-Victorian house. One would think that Eddie’s mom would accept her little boy going into such a clean house, but she assumed such a spotless house kept so clean by two unmarried men had to have been the home of homosexuals (page 712).

As for the Truck Depot, it was the filthy opposite of their house. The back of the building was used for playing baseball, and kids were invited to play there (page 713). Eddie, for obvious reasons, would never have been allowed by his mom to play baseball there.

The hypochondria and fear of germs his mom imposed on him is clearly a form of emotional abuse. Even two men living in a spotless house, actually just brothers, are assumed to be a pair of filthy “queers.” Nothing could possibly be clean enough for her.

Eddie walks out across the area where they used to play baseball, all the way to the fence, beyond which “the ground slipped down, aggressively green,” to the Barrens (page 720).

He contemplates what he feels is a misnomer for this area of land down there. There’s nothing barren about the Barrens. It’s quite the opposite, actually. If anything, it ought to be called “the Wilderness,” or “the Jungle,” especially now, since “the Barrens were more junglelike than ever” (page 720).

To make matters worse, Eddie feels that the name “Barrens” sounds ominous and sinister. “Barrens” implies a desert, a place of lifelessness. The “stretch of such tangled and virulent growth” implies an abundance of life, and the choice of the word virulent brings back Eddie’s fear of germs and disease. So the dialectical opposites of virulent and barren are sublated with the idea of disease bringing on death, Eddie’s greatest fear.

Furthermore, barren reminds Eddie of how all the Losers are childless, as Mike noted in the Chinese restaurant. In spite of how successful all of them turned out in terms of their careers, they were all ‘the barren ones,’ the Barrens. As kids, they all hung out in a place that would become their namesake, Eddie realizes.

As he’s turning away, he sees a cement cylinder, the kind of thing Ben used to call “Morlock holes.” (page 721) Going in there was going into the sewers, the hell of the unconscious mind, the land of repressed trauma, where all the filth and germs are.

Memories of the Barrens, as well as Henry Bowers’s gang chasing them in there, make Eddie want to leave, to be home with Myra, his new mama. And just then, he hears the voice of It. It tells him to catch a baseball tossed over the fence; he catches the ball so well, it’s as if he were an experienced baseball player (page 721). This ability at, and participation in, a game his neurotic mother forbade him to play should frighten him.

As soon as he catches the ball, it turns into a ball of string that’s unraveling (page 722). He realizes that It is with him when he sees the string going over the top of the fence “like a strand of spiderweb.”

The voice that’s calling out to him to play ball is that of Belch Huggins, who was murdered in the tunnels of Derry back in August of the late 50s. Belch was with Henry’s gang at the time, chasing the Losers in the sewers. Now, adult Eddie sees Belch coming out of the Barrens area to meet him on the other side of the fence.

When they meet, Belch offers Eddie a blowjob, just like the leper crawling from the cellar window in the house at 29 Neibolt Street. And sure enough, Eddie sees Belch transformed into that leper.

What Eddie sees here is a number of parallels reflecting his fear of germs and, ultimately, his domineering mother’s disapproval. Belch crawling out of the Barrens, one symbol of the unconscious, parallels the leper crawling out of the cellar, another such symbol. The filthy house at Neibolt Street parallels, on the one hand, the filthy Truck Depot, and on the other, the all-too-clean house of the Tracker Brothers, those life-long bachelors assumed by Eddie’s ignorant mother to be filthy “queers.” These men play ball with boys, just as the leper wants to ‘play ball’ with Eddie in another sense.

After continuing to be terrorized by It in other forms, Eddie finds the scariest one to be that of Patrick Hockstetter, one of the Bowers gang. What’s especially scary about Patrick is how sociopathic and solipsistic he was when alive. We will eventually learn how disturbed Patrick was in the chapter titled, “Another One of the Missing: The Death of Patrick Hockstetter” (pages 1045-1090), in which we learn of him murdering his baby brother at the age of five, his hobby of killing flies, collecting them in his pencil case, and presenting them to the other kids on the playground. He’s also seen by Beverly to be jerking off Henry in the Barrens.

Patrick’s killing, collecting, and displaying flies can be linked to Eddie’s and Bill’s fortune cookies, and seeing bugs crawling out of them. As one of Henry’s gang of bullies, Patrick also bugs the Losers. Though it was Beverly, rather than Eddie, who saw Patrick giving Henry a handjob, the association with homosexuality also links thematically with adult Eddie’s overall experience there at the Tracker Brothers’ Truck Depot.

All of these triggers of Eddie’s fear of filth and germs, including seeing a message on a balloon saying, “ASTHMA MEDICINE CAUSES LUNG CANCER!” (page 725), make him run and run from the Truck Depot area (page 726). He collapses where some kids see him and, thinking he’s a wino with a weird disease and may even be the child-killer, keep away from him. It has projected Its pathologies onto Eddie, just as It did onto Ben in the library.

Beverly is walking down Main Street, thinking about Ben’s three-line love poem to her, and how she, as a child, hid it in her lower bedroom drawer, among her underwear, so her father would never find it and suspect she was being naughty with boys. Imagining him still alive and still living in Derry, she wants to find the old apartment house they lived in and visit him.

As abusive as Al was to her, she is convinced that he has loved her. In this understanding, we can see how she has been able to reconcile what Melanie Klein would have called the good father and the bad father, a mental reconciliation called the depressive position. Her love of Bill, back in 1958, was a transference of her Oedipal love of her dad, since the authority Bill projected had a paternal quality, yet Bill, unlike Al, listened to her (page 727).

She finds the old apartment house, 127 Lower Main Street (page 729), and rings the doorbell a couple times (page 731), thinking about Ben’s poem again, and wondering if she’d begun menstruating at eleven, around the time her breasts had begun growing…also around the time she’d seen the blood in the sinkhole (see above).

Al doesn’t answer the door. Instead, it’s an old woman. She tells Beverly that her father, Alvin Marsh, died five years ago (page 732). The old woman’s name is Mrs. Kersh, a name Beverly’s misread on the mailbox for the first floor, where her father lived. This misreading represents how Bev has equated the old woman with her dad in her mind…and equated her with her mom, too.

This equating is significant, given how we just explored the good and bad father in Al, and how we’ll see the good and bad mother as represented in Mrs. Marsh…er, Kersh. For just as Al both ‘loved’ and abused Bev, so did Elfrida, as dead now (cancer) as Al, both ‘love’ and look the other way (for the most part, at least) whenever he abused their daughter. Put another way, Bev’s encounter here with Mrs. Kersh is a transference of Elfrida onto this old woman.

For the moment, we’re seeing the good mother transference in Mrs. Kersh as she shows hospitality to Beverly. Soon enough, though, the bad mother will come out.

Very little did Mrs. Kersh know Al (page 733), as she tells Bev in a manner like the inverted syntax of Yoda, who knew Anakin, who was also sometimes the good father, sometimes the abusive, bad one, cutting off Luke’s hand. Elfrida also little knew Al, from her looking away when he did…what he did…to her.

Mrs. Kersh, as the good mother transference, invites Beverly in and makes some tea for them. The changes made to her old home make it feel safe because it is almost all different (page 733). She tells Mrs. Kersh that she loves what’s been done with the place (page 736), but she’s sure she saw Marsh under the doorbell, not Kersh.

Beverly begins to observe other strange things about this old woman. She’s sure Mrs. Kersh’s teeth were white when they first met…now she sees yellow teeth (pages 736-737). Her eyes and hair have changed, too…uglier. Bev hopes Mrs. Kersh won’t see a negative reaction on her face.

The old woman mentions her father, calling him Robert “Bob” Gray, then Pennywise the Dancing Clown (page 737). Laughing, she has some black teeth now. The good mother transference is turning into the bad mother, a witch, and Beverly is feeling like Gretel in her home (page 739).

The witch says, “Oh, my fadder and I are one” (page 738), recalling John 10:30. The Biblical quote is meant to be understood as a good thing, of course. She, however, is one with Pennywise (the devil of this cosmology, remember), or more accurately, with Bev’s father. Put another way, the good and bad mother are one, the good and bad father are one, and mother and father are one.

Bev runs for the door, while the cackling witch is warning of what will happen to her and her friends if they stay in Derry. As she’s running out, she looks back and sees her father in the witch’s dress (page 740). He says to her what’s been implied over and over again in the childhood flashbacks: “I beat you because I wanted to FUCK you, Bevvie…” The bad witch mother is the bad rapist father. Her mother’s emotional neglect was every bit as abusive, in its own way, as her father’s terrorizing was.

Outside, Beverly looks back again and sees Al in Pennywise’s clothes, instead of the witch’s dress (page 740). It’s holding a child’s severed leg, reminding us of Georgie’s arm. Pennywise is equated with Al because the former is the personification of the trauma caused by the latter.

To sum up the situation with the good and bad mothers and fathers, as well as their transferences, they are all another manifestation of the duality of good and bad as I have mentioned as appearing here and there throughout the novel in various forms.

Richie is walking along Outer Canal Street, remembering a time when he was a kid and Henry’s gang was chasing him (page 743). He’s also trying to convince himself that what he and the others saw in the fortune cookies was just a group hallucination. After all, Rose didn’t see anything, just as Bev’s parents hadn’t seen any blood in the bathroom sink.

Richie remembers when, as a kid, he was the class clown, and that now, he has resumed that role (page 744). This remembering can be linked back to when Ben, in the library, saw Pennywise doing Richie’s Pickaninny Voice, accusing Ben of killing the children, and implying that the Losers are, in their own way, as bad as It is (see above). Richie’s a clown, as is Pennywise. They are mirrors held up to each other.

Just as Pennywise, personifying the Losers’ trauma, is a projection of theirs outward, so does Pennywise project his evil right back onto them. Abusers often project their vices onto their victims, as Al did his lechery onto little Beverly, and since the Losers are the novel’s protagonists, this projection of evil back and forth between them and Pennywise is another example of that dialectical duality appearing and reappearing at so many points in the novel.

Richie comes to City Center and sees the huge statue of Paul Bunyan there (page 746). He finds it idiotic and as cheerfully vulgar as he found its size overwhelming as a child. When it was built, there were those who thought it would be a great tourist attraction, while others thought it would be horrible, garish, and gauche (page 747). Since some find clowns amusing and entertaining, while others find them evil and scary, the giant Paul Bunyan statue, with its axe, can be seen as a double of Pennywise.

The association of these two is strengthened when we remember Richie, as a kid, having run away from Henry’s gang, who’d chased him from school until they lost him in Freese’s Department Store, then the exhausted boy was on one of the benches in front of the statue (page 748). The chase was provoked by Richie’s trash-mouth reaction to Henry slipping and falling on a wet floor at school.

As he was resting, he saw a message advertising a concert with performers like Jerry Lee Lewis, The Penguins, and Gene Vincent and the Blue Caps. Though the ad says it’s “WHOLESOME ENTERTAINMENT” (page 752), the boy’s mom wouldn’t have thought so, meaning there was no chance of little Richie seeing the show. Recall that, as a DJ, Richie has always found this kind of entertainment to be right up his alley. Since he’s something of a showman himself, he can identify with rock ‘n’ roll stars, which will be most significant a little later in this section of the chapter.

Adult Richie, by the Paul Bunyan statue again, is delighted to see a new ad for a rock show, this time with Judas Priest and Iron Maiden (page 754). He contemplates how the statue’s appearance has changed over the years. The grin on its face no longer looks cheery, and now we begin to see how Paul Bunyan is a double of Pennywise (page 756).

The statue starts to speak.

Like the giant in “Jack and the Beanstalk” (recall how many references to children’s stories there are in It), Paul’s statue says he’ll eat Richie up if he doesn’t give back his hen, harp, and bags of gold (page 756).

Richie rolls off the bench he’s been sitting on, and Paul’s axe slashes the bench (page 757). So, being terrorized by giant Paul Bunyan is like being chased by Henry Bowers’s gang all over again. In these connections between the school bullies, the statue, and Pennywise, we see how the third of these threats is just a psychological terror, causing the hallucinations that Richie’s convinced he saw in the Chinese restaurant, and reviving his old childhood traumas.

The mental associations are iconic (Bunyan/Pennywise, both by turns comic and scary) and localized (City Center, near where the bullies chased Richie). After the statue is no longer terrorizing him, just as when he knew he was safe from the bullies, Richie sees the ad for the rock shows again. Now, though, it’s all for dead rock starts, including the three who died in the famous plane crash of February, 1959…and the show is dedicated to Richie. “YOU’RE DEAD TOO!” it tells him (page 762), associating Richie as a performer with them.

The associations between Paul Bunyan and Pennywise are made complete when Richie looks up at the statue and sees the clown instead of the lumberjack (page 763). After the two exchange taunts, Pennywise alludes to Matthew 7:5 (page 764), about removing the beam from one’s own eye before removing the mote from someone else’s eye. This would be a comment on the giving and receiving of projections of evil as discussed above. The idea will be further developed below.

Richie finds himself speaking in a new, stereotyped black man’s voice, one he’d never done before, in an attempt to threaten Pennywise (pages 764-765) Apart from him again using his sense of humour and theatricality as a manic defence against his trauma, his use of this voice seems to be a mirrored parody of Pennywise having done the Pickaninny voice to Ben in the library. Then Richie begins to run like hell.

Pennywise’s voice thunders after him, saying, “We’ve got the eye down here, Richie…[…] give a great big hi to our great big eye!” (page 765) We’re reminded of the eye Richie saw in his fortune cookie. There’s also the removing of motes or beams from one’s eye alluded to here.

Richie looks back, and seeing neither Paul nor the clown, he now sees a giant statue of Buddy Holly, one of the three killed on “the day the music died.” (page 765) Also, like Richie, Buddy wore glasses, acceptable for a rock ‘n’ roll star back in the 1950s, but nerdy by 1980s standards. Richie is being mirrored and identified with Buddy in these two ways: a loser of life, and a just-plain Loser. Richie’s aspired to be a giant among performers, yet will he also die as such?

To complete the Richie/Buddy/nerd link, Richie sees tape on Buddy’s glasses (page 766). More associations can be made here: adhesive tape on glasses implies ones that aren’t very good for seeing through, which in turn implies impaired eyesight, like the mote or beam in one’s eyes. Someone idolizing pop star ‘giants’ or other such performers isn’t using his eyes very well, either. Visual hallucinations, such as seeing an eye in a fortune cookie, is certainly not seeing well.

He finally sees that Paul Bunyan the giant statue is back to normal, with its axe back over its shoulder; but his eyes are suddenly in agonizing pain. Even when the hallucinations of a living Paul Bunyan, Pennywise, and Buddy Holly are gone, his eyes are still doing him wrong. Richie even almost jabs his forefingers into his eyes (page 766). It’s as if, unconsciously, he wants to blind himself, so he won’t ever see traumatizing things again.

His contact lenses are hurting his eyes. They’re like the mote and beam he has to get out of his eyes. He blinks to get them out, and he–aided by a nearby high school girl–searches the sidewalk for almost fifteen minutes trying to find them (page 767).

Bill is walking up Witcham Street, and he pauses by the drain where George was killed (page 767). He won’t see Pennywise this afternoon, but he will see a ghost. He peers into the drain, wanting to confront the clown that killed his little brother, even threatening that he and the Losers will go down there and get It.

He gets no answer from It, but a boy of about ten with a skateboard approaches, wondering why Bill is talking into the sewer. Though the boy at first would seem to think that Bill is crazy, it turns out that he, too, has heard scary voices from the sewers (page 768).

In a sense, this boy could be said to be the ‘ghost’ that Bill sees, though as we learn later in this section, ‘seeing a ghost’ actually comes from a tongue-twister poem. Still, this boy could be the ‘ghost’ in the sense that he reminds Bill of Georgie. Bill has a kind of George transference for the boy, causing him to feel affection for him (page 773).

That the boy says he shouldn’t be talking to strangers, because of the recent spate of killings, further establishes the link between him and George in Bill’s mind. Bill would like to try out the boy’s skateboard, but realizing he’ll just crash and hurt himself, he wisely changes his mind (he’s almost forty years old, and unlike the two handsome actors who play adult Bill in the TV miniseries and the 2019 film, he’s bald).

Wanting to go on the skateboard, with the risk of crashing, anticipates his final ride on his old bike, Silver, with Audra. Further linking the skateboard to the bike is how Bill is going to find Silver later in this very section.

He learns about a shop called Secondhand Rose, Secondhand Clothes, a filthy, dingy place, and here is where he finds Silver, in the window (page 778). When he’s about to ask the owner of the shop about the bike, those tongue-twisting old lines suddenly pop up in his head: “He thrusts his fists against the posts and still insists he sees the ghosts.” (page 779) Seeing old Silver is also rather like seeing a ghost for Bill, so this must be a major factor in reviving the memory of this old rhyming couplet.

When Bill was a kid, he used to recite this rhyme as part of his speech therapy for ridding himself of his stammer. What’s curious about the words is how they include the idea of ‘seeing ghosts,’ something that should have always been triggering for little Bill…yet they helped cure his stutter.

In a similar vein, racing on the bike with Audra, as dangerous as it was, snaps her out of her catatonia. Perhaps a crash on the boy’s skateboard would have been good for Bill, too.

The point is that It is all about facing one’s fears in order to cure one’s trauma. One has to get hurt to get rid of hurt. This is what the duality of good and evil in the novel–its interconnected, dialectical nature–ultimately means.

We learn, incidentally, that the proprietor is gay, reminding us of Adrian Mellon and his murder (page 781). Bill buys the bike for twenty bucks, he calls Mike and asks if it will be OK to take the bike over to Mike’s garage so he can store it there. Mike agrees to it, and Bill takes it over there.

Mike is helping Bill fix up the bike, and at one point, a deck of playing cards (for attaching to the bike’s wheel) that Mike has just opened has two aces of spades; these two cards are also the only ones, after having scattered the deck all over the floor, to land face up (pages 788-789).

The ace of spades can symbolize many things, both positive and negative, but for the sake of this novel, it would seem that the negative meanings have far greater importance. It’s been called the Death Card, being associated with imminent death, bad fortune, disaster, hatred, war, and even the end of the world…which should remind us of the flooding in Derry, twice, and the…apocalyptic…rock fight. So the two cards are an omen.

There are two aces of spades seen in this deck because the Losers have to deal with It twice. That the card has both positive and negative symbolism also ties in with the theme of good and bad duality. It’s bad to face the terror of It, but it’s also good to do so in order to defeat It.

After attaching the playing cards to the bike’s rear wheel, then eating burgers that Mike has cooked for them, Bill brings up the rhyming couplet. Bill has written it down on a business card, and he’s had Mike read it, asking him if it means anything to him (pages 789-790). Mike remembers that Bill, as a kid, used to mumble the couplet to himself in an attempt to cure his stammer. Bill struggled with saying it properly back then, but he did at least once succeed.

He’s now frustrated that he can’t remember the precise moment when he successfully said it. We have here a case of repressed memory–which would normally be a repressed trauma–yet it’s also a move out of the traumatic, unutterable world of the Real and into the verbal, social world of the Symbolic.

“The ghosts”–representative of Bill’s trauma (i.e., Georgie’s ghost)–is fittingly at the end of the couplet. The saying of these words, presumably after having said all of the preceding ones without a stutter, would thus represent a fully successful recitation, progress–at the very least–in curing himself of his stutter. Saying that last word is symbolic of facing his fears, verbalizing his trauma.

His inability to remember his childhood success–that is, when it actually happened–means he can no longer make the moment real for himself, hence his hard banging of his fists on the picnic table in frustration (page 790). The forgetting is an unconscious resistance; sometimes we know when we need to face a trauma, but our unconscious forbids the confrontation out of how unbearable the pain will be. Still, the forgetting is frustrating because we know that we must confront the pain in order to be cured of it.

In this we once again note the good/bad duality. It’s good that the forgetting/resistance spares us the pain, but it’s also good to face the pain to be cured of it, and it’s bad to be denied that cure because of the forgetting.

Part IV is coming soon.

Stephen King, It, New York, Pocket Books, 1986

Analysis of ‘The Howling’

The Howling is a 1981 horror film directed by Joe Dante, based on the 1977 novel of the same name by Gary Brandner. The film stars Dee Wallace, Patrick Macnee, Christopher Stone, Dennis Dugan, and Robert Picardo.

The film received generally positive reviews, with praise for the makeup special effects by Rob Bottin. It won the 1980 Saturn Award for Best Horror Film while still in development, and it was one of three major werewolf films of 1981, the other two being An American Werewolf in London and Wolfen.

Seven sequels have been made to The Howling, the first film’s success having helped Dante’s career so he could make Gremlins in 1984. A remake of The Howling is in development, with Andy Muschietti set to direct.

Here is a link to quotes from the film, and here is a link to Brandner’s novel. Here is a link to the script.

The differences between the novel and the film are huge. In fact, the film only ever-so-vaguely follows the plot of the novel. I’ll point out just a few of the differences for now.

Karen While (Wallace) is Karyn Beatty in the novel, and her husband is Roy Beatty, his film equivalent being Bill Neill (Stone), for we learn that White has kept her maiden name. Karyn is raped at home in the novel, whereas Karen is almost attacked by a werewolf in an adult bookstore’s movie booth in the film. In the novel, her psychiatrist is only briefly mentioned; in the film, psychiatrist Dr. George Waggner (Macnee) is a major character, who has her recuperate in his health resort, called “The Colony,” while in the novel, she recuperates in a town called Drago, in California. The nymphomaniac werewolf is Marcia Lura in the novel; in the film, she’s Marsha Quist (played by Elisabeth Brooks), sister of werewolf/serial killer Eddie Quist (Picardo). The rapist of the novel is non-werewolf Max Quist.

It’s interesting to analyze the nature of the changes of the novel’s beginning to those of the film’s, that is, in psychoanalytic terms. It’s as if the screenplay to the film were written by Karyn Beatty instead of by John Sayles and Terrence H. Winkless, as if an attempt by her to reframe her trauma in a way that’s less invasive of her body, replacing a direct rape with a more symbolic, dream-like attack.

In the novel, as stated above, Max Quist, an ex-con resentful of being an unacknowledged worker and with no werewolf powers, comes into Karyn’s apartment while her husband’s away and rapes her, even biting her hard on the thigh. The Beattys have a dog, significantly named Lady, that tries to intervene on Karyn’s behalf, but is kicked away by Max. The dog goes with Karyn and Roy to Drago, and it is killed there. Violence against a dog named Lady seems like a further projection of Karyn’s trauma elsewhere.

So what we have in the novel is a straightforward act of brutal violence causing Karyn’s trauma. In the film, this violence is transformed in many ways, suggesting in its distortions a diluting of that pain.

First of all, Karen White is a TV news reporter risking her life by drawing out her stalker, Eddie Quist, so the police can catch him. Instead of Quist raping her, he has her meet him in a sleazy porn movie booth in an adult book store, where he makes her watch a video of a young woman being bound and raped. Thus the trauma of Karyn is projected onto the woman in the porn video.

Instead of getting a…lupine?…bite from Quist, Karen looks behind her and sees his terrifying transformation into a lycanthrope…though immediately afterwards, she is amnesiac about it, her repression of the memory protecting her from the pain.

This comparison between novel and film leads to a discussion of one of the film’s themes: the contrast between the true self and the false self. As Dr. Waggner says in a news interview with a TV host, “Repression is the father of neurosis, of self-hatred.” He speaks of the unfortunate reality of denying “the beast, the animal, within us,” of replacing the true self with the false self.

This replacement, in the film adaptation, of the novel’s rape scene with Karen watching a video of a rape, a man transforming into a werewolf, and her no longer being able to remember the traumatic experience, is an example of replacing the truth with a kind of fantasy, a falsehood that hurts less. Such replacements of painful truth with comforting falsehood are also seen in characters in the film replacing the true self with the false one.

Another interesting observation can be made of how the true experience of Karyn Beatty’s rape is expressed via the written word, whereas the trauma of Karen White is given in visuals, in images. These two presentations of the traumatizing incident correspond respectively with Lacan‘s notions of the Symbolic and the Imaginary, the trauma itself corresponding to the Real.

Trauma corresponds to the Real because the Real cannot be symbolized, or articulated with words. It is through psychotherapy, or the “talking cure,” that the horrors of the ineffable, undifferentiated world of the Real can be transformed into the Symbolic, the realm of language, of the differentiated. Such a talking cure is attempted with Karen in group therapy sessions in The Colony. This therapy is an attempt to peel away repression, bit by bit, to find the truth.

In the novel, it is significant that Karyn Beatty escapes the town of Drago, which is all engulfed in flames, defeating the werewolves that inhabit the town. In the version of the story given in the written word (the Symbolic), she survives–she’s ‘cured,’ metaphorically speaking. In the film, the version with images and an examination of the narcissistic false self (the Imaginary), Karen White becomes a werewolf and is (presumably) killed with a silver bullet shot from the rifle Chris Halloran (Dugan) has been using on the werewolves.

If you’ll indulge a brief digression, Dear Reader, it is through the Imaginary that one establishes a sense of self, an ego; this comes about during the mirror stage, when an infant first sees his reflection and realizes that that person over there, in the specular image, is himself. He’s alienated from it, though: it’s himself, yet it’s over there, as if a totally different person. That image is also a unified, coherent one, as opposed to the awkward, clumsy, fragmented being the child feels himself to be. Is that really me over there? Is the ego real, or is it illusory?

The ideal-I as seen in the mirror reflection is an ideal that one feels compelled throughout life to measure up to; an example of this attempt to measure up is seen in the scene in the public washroom, when an anchorman (played by Jim McKrell) is standing before the mirror practicing how he’ll enunciate his introduction of a news story with the most mellifluous, rounded tones he can muster. It’s a comical scene, especially when Bill Neill walks in and the anchorman switches to his normal Southern accent to speak with him.

The Imaginary is fundamentally narcissistic; Lacan called it “Fraud.” Indeed, it is the false self that hides the beast…and the buffoon.

This scene in the washroom ties in well with the fact that Karen also works as a TV news reporter. Those of us who observe the media carefully have known for decades that the news frequently disseminates false or at least misleading information, intended to serve the interests of the corporate elite and the military-industrial-media complex. Images of people like Karen on the TV (i.e., the stoic anchor persona) are thus thematically fitting for the purposes of this film.

On two occasions when in front of the camera, Karen fails to present this fake persona expected in the news media. On the first occasion, her trauma causes her to see images of her painful memories of that night with Quist instead of seeing the camera in front of her; this causes her to freeze on air, making her unable to announce the news. The second time, at the end of the movie, she turns into a werewolf for everyone to see on TV.

This theme of the media as representative of fakery is developed, however indirectly, through the film’s use of many nods to classic old werewolf films, a cartoon with a wolf, and actors known for having appeared in old horror/sci fi films. These actors include Kevin McCarthy (who appeared in Invasion of the Body Snatchers) as the TV news station manager, John Carradine, and Kenneth Tobey (who was in The Thing from Another World, later remade as The Thing). Even Roger Corman (who made The Little Shop of Horrors) does a cameo, waiting for Karen to finish using a pay phone at the beginning of the movie. Recall how the aliens in Snatchers and The Thing are fake imitations of people. Recall also how fake the special effects of those old horror movies were, as compared to the effects in The Howling.

When Karen and Bill (or Karyn and Roy) go out to The Colony (or the town of Drago) for her to recuperate, she is disturbed at night to hear howling coming from the woods surrounding their cabin. She goes over to the bedroom window, looks out into the trees, and listens for the howling. This howling represents a projection of her trauma, her howling in pain, as it were, out into the woods. The notion of werewolves out there, as she eventually finds out is the source of the howling, is a transformation of the rape trauma, in her unconscious mind, into something unrecognizable as symbolic of a rape memory, since what is repressed returns to the conscious mind and hides in plain sight, unrecognized by us in our waking hours. The howling also represents the honest expression of feelings, the true self.

The film makes a strong link between werewolves and sexuality (I also did this in my novel, Wolfgang), as already indicated above. This howling in the woods reminds us of Freud‘s rather far-fetched interpretation of the dream of the “Wolf Man,” in which Freud’s patient saw six or seven wolves on tree branches outside the window of his home. Freud interpreted this dream as representing Sergei Pankejeff‘s witnessing, as a child, the primal scene–that is, his parents making love in ‘doggy-style.’ (I’m not endorsing Freud’s wild speculations here: I’m just using the fame of this interpretation to reinforce the link between wolves–and therefore werewolves–and sexuality.)

Another such link in the film is seen in Marsha Quist, a known nymphomaniac in The Colony who seduces Bill, the two of them turning into werewolves as they have sex in the woods. In the novel, Karyn immediately feels jealousy on meeting Marcia Luna, angered at the attractive woman’s constant attention to her husband. As in the film, Roy has a sexual relationship with Marcia, a werewolf like all of Drago’s residents.

Bill’s becoming a werewolf coincides with two other changes in his personality: first, going from being a faithful husband (initially resisting Marsha’s sexual advances) to cheating on Karen; second, going from being a vegetarian to eating meat. Again, the false self hides the true self through repression of unacceptable behaviour.

In the film, a character not in the novel, Terry Fisher (played by Belinda Balaski), also works at the TV station and is Chris’s girlfriend. She continues to investigate Eddie Quist, going into his home with Chris and discovering his aptitude at art. The killer has drawn many werewolf portraits and has posters of old werewolf movie ads on his walls. Terry quips that Eddie “could’ve designed the Marquis de Sade colouring book,” another link between werewolves and sexuality.

Terry later explores The Colony, finds Quist’s body missing in the morgue, learns from a bookseller (played by Dick Miller) that regular bullets don’t kill werewolves, and that Quist’s drawing of a lake is one in The Colony area. She’s found his other drawings there, too. Quist is alive!

Now, how does one become a werewolf? By being clawed, scratched, or bitten by another. This is what happens to Bill when walking through the woods back home after he resists Marsha’s initial sexual advances. Since the film links werewolves with sexuality–rape and, as we can see here, unwanted sexual advances in particular–the scratching or biting of someone by a werewolf, making him or her into a new werewolf, is thus symbolic of passing the sexual trauma onto a new victim.

The werewolf’s claws and teeth are phallic symbols, cutting yonic wounds into its victims, making the werewolf’s attack a symbolic rape. This symbolism is how I can see the film’s beginning trauma of Karen seeing Eddie Quist’s transformation in the porn movie booth, juxtaposed with her watching that porn rape scene, as a transformation of Karyn’s actual rape, with the wolf-like bite on her thigh, in the novel.

When Terry puts all the pieces together about The Colony, and is about to reveal its secrets, she is attacked by TC Quist (played by Don McLeod), the werewolf brother of Eddie and Marsha. Terry manages during the struggle to find an ax and hacks off the werewolf’s hairy, clawed hand, which she sees transform back into a human hand. Since the clawing of a victim, with phallic claws, is a symbolic rape, then the cutting off of a werewolf’s hand is a symbolic castration.

Later, she is killed by werewolf Eddie in Waggner’s office after phoning Chris and telling him about the werewolf secret in The Colony; when she’s being killed, the phone call being interrupted by Eddie means it hasn’t been hung up, so Chris listens in horror at his girlfriend’s screaming and death. (Later, Chris arrives in the office and confronts Eddie, who tells him Terry has “a sexy voice,” once again linking werewolves with predatory sexuality in The Howling.)

Karen goes over to Waggner’s office and finds Terry’s bloody body there, then she confronts resurrected Eddie, who transforms in front of her. She’s paralyzed with fear.

Eddie’s transformation into a werewolf is the highlight of the film, being an impressive example of pre-CGI special effects (though the transformation scene in An American Werewolf in London is even better). Eddie is proud of his powers, pleased to demonstrate them to terrified Karen. He’s displaying his bestial true self, as opposed to his human false self.

One of the insights Terry and Chris get from the bookseller is that the movies’ notion of werewolves needing a full moon to transform is “Hollywood baloney” (reinforcing what I said above about this film’s theme about the media and falsehoods); actually, as shapeshifters, lycanthropes can transform anytime at will, as we see Eddie doing here.

Karen scalds Eddie’s face with acid and runs outside, but she is caught by the other residents of The Colony. Waggner appears among them, revealing his sympathy for them, but also pleading with them about the necessity of fitting in with society for the sake of keeping their secret safe.

The other werewolves have lost patience with the psychiatrist’s recommendation that they all hide their lupine true selves behind a human false self; Marsha in particular is adamantly opposed to this hiding, having earlier rebuked the doctor for giving her brother TC a copy of his book, The Gift, which rationalizes man’s bestial nature as a source of creativity. (Recall in this connection Eddie’s artistic aptitudes.)

Chris arrives with a rifle loaded with silver bullets he got from the bookstore, and after killing Eddie with it, he shoots and kills a few of the werewolves holding Karen (Waggner, too, gets shot, and–having just been scratched by a werewolf–he’s grateful no longer to have to continue the burden of treating the untreatable, or to have to be a werewolf himself), and Chris runs off with Karen to his car to get away, having also burned down a building filled with werewolves.

Even Sam Newfield, the sheriff of The Colony area (played by Slim Pickens), is a werewolf, and as Karen and Chris are getting away, they have to put a silver bullet or two in him, too. The sheriff, with his rifle, has shot up Chris’s car, including blowing a tire, and a few more werewolves are attacking, so he and Karen have to switch to Sam’s police car to get away.

Werewolf Bill, however, is one of their attackers, and he bites Karen from the back seat of the car, so she will be a werewolf, too. She knows she must warn the world, using her position as a newswoman to disseminate the message to as many people as possible. This means, contrary to the normal media practice of presenting a false self that is pleasing to one’s viewers (i.e., that image of stoic reporting that her male colleague was practicing before the mirror in the public bathroom), she must show her true self as a new werewolf…on live TV.

Chris, heartbroken, must now put a silver bullet in her.

The film ends in a bar where its patrons, having watched the news broadcast on the wall-mounted TV screen, debate whether what they’ve seen was real or the gimmickry of special effects–another manifestation of the film’s exploration of the theme of truth vs. fakery in the media.

Marsha’s managed to survive the fire in The Colony, and she’s in the bar, where a man hoping to get lucky with her has treated her to a hamburger cooked rare. She’s enticing him with her nymphomaniac false self, while waiting to reveal her true self to him in his bedroom.

While the credits roll, we see her burger cooking. It’s interesting to watch the slow transformation of the pink meat into a hamburger; this parallels the slow transformation of Eddie into a werewolf…or the slow process of psychotherapy revealing, bit by bit, repressed trauma. On top of all this, there’s the symbolism of the rising heat of sexual passion, and meat…flesh…to be eaten: more of the merging of the carnivore with the sexual predator.

Review and Analysis of ‘Blood Moon Big Top’

29179003_600304853639219_2885593573321867264_nBlood Moon Big Top is a horror short story by Toneye Eyenot, an Australian author and vocalist for the Death Metal band, Chaotic Impurity, and for the Black Metal band, Infinite Black. The story combines the werewolf and evil clown tropes, as the cover makes clear. If you haven’t read the story yet, you might not want to read any further, as there are spoilers below.

More importantly, though, we see in this story the problem of alienation, which I dealt with in my analysis of the Alien franchise. Here, however, I’ll be focusing on how alienation causes one to replace the need for love with mere instinctual gratification…in this case, hunger.

Kendrick, a drifter, disowns his birth name, and when he gets a job as a clown in Johann’s Family Circus, he so identifies with his job that he’d rather be known as Marbles the Clown. Already we see him alienated not only from society as a drifter, but alienated from his own identity, too, because of the job he’s chosen.

…and what an identity to attach himself to! A clown? It’s one thing to do this as a job, but to see one’s identity so fused with the job that one would prefer one’s clown name to one’s birth name?! As ‘Third Wheel’ says, “Well, what the fuck kinda name is Marbles, anyway?” (page 45)

Significantly, we don’t see Marbles ever in his clown costume and makeup until the end of the story, but he’s always known as Marbles the Clown, implying that he’s an utter fool…by choice.

A naked, feral boy bites him in the woods near the circus, giving him the curse of the werewolf. The boy is as alienated as Marbles is, and thus has chosen the perfect victim to pass the curse onto.

Alienation is contagious.

From here on out in the story, an insatiable hunger takes over Marbles, but any normal food makes him sick. Only human flesh will satisfy his needs.

If you’ll indulge me for a moment, Dear Reader, I’d like to digress, and discuss a few psychoanalytic concepts that I consider relevant in my interpretation of this story. WRD Fairbairn rejected Freud’s drive theory in favour of a belief that libido is object-directed, rather than striving merely for physical pleasure (i.e., satiation of the sex-drive, hunger, etc.). By ‘objects’ is meant people other than oneself, the subject, so object-directed libido means the urge to have relationships with others–the need for friendships and love.

For Fairbairn, the personality is relational, giving energy to and receiving energy from other people; and the more inadequately love and empathy are provided by one’s parents, the more severely is one’s personality split into a three-part endo-psychic structure: the original, conscious Central Ego (corresponding roughly with Freud’s ego) relating to its Ideal Object; the unconscious Libidinal Ego (corresponding roughly with Freud’s id) relating to its Exciting Object; and the unconscious Anti-libidinal Ego (corresponding roughly with Freud’s superego) relating to its Rejecting Object.

So Marbles’s Central Ego has been alienated from society, one he–in childhood–would have wanted to connect with, but was hurt by so often that he gave up on it and became a drifter. His Central Ego thus made an extreme split into an Anti-libidinal Ego, for which society has largely been the Rejecting Object, and a Libidinal Ego for which the circus, and now, human flesh, have become the Exciting Object.

I see the possibility, however, of fusing Fairbairn with Freud, for when object relations radically break down, as they clearly do with Marbles (who’s losing his marbles in the process), the urge to gratify the instincts replaces object-seeking. Fairbairn wrote about this problem: “…from the point of view of object-relationship psychology, explicit pleasure-seeking represents a deterioration of behaviour…Explicit pleasure-seeking has as its essential aim the relieving of the tension of libidinal need for the mere sake of relieving this tension. Such a process does, of course, occur commonly enough; but, since libidinal need is object-need, simple tension-relieving implies some failure of object-relationships.” (Fairbairn, p. 139-140) How often do we see people, whose relationships have broken down, turn to alcohol, drugs, or sex to give them a most inadequate solace.

And so it is with Marbles, whose severely split ego-structure, now exacerbated by his growing lycanthropy, turns into a mere instinct gratifier. To use Freudian language, his superego disintegrates after his brief spell of guilt after eating the conjoined twin babies, and he starts killing without remorse. Then, his hunger urges him to kill without any thought even of the danger of being caught by the police or killed: his ego, with its attendant reality principle, has faded away. He plans to enter the circus and enjoy a smorgasbord of human flesh: the thought of them fighting back and killing him is far from his mind.

All that’s left of his mind now is pure id, seeking to satisfy the pleasure principle–eat, eat, eat, satisfy that eternal hunger. Yet, by a strange paradox, since only human flesh will satisfy him, his instinctual drives impel him to be around people. Here we see the fusion of Freud and Fairbairn: Marbles seeks to gratify his instinct for satiation, while also seeking human objects. Furthermore, his Libidinal Ego/Exciting Object and Anti-libidinal Ego/Rejecting Object are also fused in his id, for the human flesh that excites him houses the souls of human company rejected by him (i.e., deprived of physical life).

Here we see how, in fusing object-seeking libido with pleasure-seeking libido, Marbles’s urges represent how alienation corrupts the desire for love and friendship by turning it into a mere lust of the flesh and blood. Eros phases into Thanatos, just as the moon wanes, taking away his life-essence, then it waxes, giving him back his energy, but only an energy to hunt and kill, the death instinct.

He seeks and finds people, but they’re only food to him now. “Although he saw people who once would have welcomed him with a smile and a cheerful greeting, these people were strangers to him now…he spotted his old trailer, isolated off behind the animal cages. It was a lonely sight and Marbles couldn’t look away.” (page 56) With humanity all around him, but only as food, he’s still alone.

And who is the one to stop Marbles and his bloodlust? His one true friend at the circus, Giuseppe the strongman (Gus), who beats the wolf-man/clown to death with a sledgehammer. No truer example of alienation can be seen than being brutally clubbed to death by your one and only friend.

A sad fate for Marbles, but what about Gus? “He had been fortunate to survive, but he was never the same again. He lost all purpose once the circus closed and, in a strange twist of tribute to Marbles, Gus lived out his days, drifting from place to place, avoiding the company of people and never staying in any one place for more than a few days.” (page 69)

Alienation is contagious, even without a feral boy’s bite.

I enjoyed this little horror tale; I’d give it four out of five stars (I disagree with some choices of words here and there in the narrative, but as Nigel Tufnel once said, “That’s, that’s nit-picking, isn’t it?”) Alienation is a serious problem in our world, so I can empathize with poor Marbles…and with poor Gus, too, for that matter.

In a symbolic sense, way too many of us are like Marbles, foolish clowns who can’t find a sense of community and friendship with others, and so we focus on our animal sides, gratifying instinct, our appetites, in what Melanie Klein called ‘The Manic Defence‘, which could manifest itself in, for example, a rushing towards such things as sex, pornography, prostitution, drugs, or alcohol to fill in that void in our lives, running away from depression instead of facing it…and thus trying to cure it. And in our rush to satiate mere appetite, we all lose our marbles and ultimately destroy ourselves, often harming many others along the way.

Toneye Eyenot, Blood Moon Big Top, J. Ellington Ashton Press, 2016

Excerpt: Opening of ‘Wolfgang,’ My Werewolf Erotic Horror Novel

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1—Sades

The full moon was glowing among the stars, the whitest of whites against the blackest of black. Paws were patting the dirt path that snaked between the grass and trees that surrounded the estate, from whose second-floor window this lupine brute had jumped. A nose was sniffing for human flesh to eat.

Soon, it found some.

A man and his wife were walking in that very forest. He wore a suit, she a dress, diamonds, and pearls. How romantic. How bourgeois. How unfortunate.

Some nearby bushes were rustling, something hiding among them, waiting for the couple to approach. Lampposts, set far off from each other, gave just enough light for people to walk through at night, but left it dark enough to keep lurking dangers unseen. A wolf’s eyes, obscured among the leaves, were following that couple’s every step.

“This is so unlike you, Franz,” the woman said in German to her husband. “Taking me for a stroll in a forest at night.”

“Yes, I know, Frieda, but tonight I felt as if something were pulling me out here,” Franz said in German. “It’s so beautiful. I couldn’t resist.”

“I wish you had resisted,” Frieda said. Her fear was vibrating all the way to those bushes. At one point, she thought she saw eyes peering at her from them. She gasped and twitched, then looked again…the eyes were gone. Did she just imagine it? “I’m scared. Let’s…”

“Relax,” he said. “This is really beautiful. Fresh air. I’m glad we came.”

“I don’t care how pretty it is,” she said. “I still don’t like us walking about here. I can’t forget that story I read about the wolf attack here a month ago. Three people—“

“Oh, nonsense! No one ever found a wolf anywhere. Those people were probably killed by that psychotic who was arrested last week. He’d killed others in the same bloody way. He may have denied killing Wolfgang Bergbauer’s family, but I’m sure he was lying.”

“But there were witnesses who insisted the wounds were caused by claws and teeth, not knives—“

“Rubbish! They also claimed it was a werewolf, of all things. Can you rely on such testimony? It was a full moon that night, as tonight. How is that proof of a werewolf? My dear, don’t be so credulous.”

A growl vibrated from those bushes.

She froze.

The two of them looked around for the source of the voice.

They never found it, of course.

Another, louder growl.

She shuddered.

“I assure you,” he said. “This isn’t at all funny.”

A grunt.

A ten second silence, then a howl.

“Alright, enough!” he shouted. “Come out, wherever you are.”

It did.

Me.

I brought him crashing down on the dirt, his hair covered in it.

Her screams were piercing my ears as keenly as my claws were cutting up his stomach.

His liver and kidneys were the tastiest, his blood being their gravy. He screamed briefly, till my claws, having already ripped his rib cage aside, scraped against his lungs, flooding his throat with red and stopping his voice. He would then only cough blood. His intestines lay like a red snake on the grass.

I, Sades, the spirit in control of the werewolf, could sense, through my connection with the vibrations of energy everywhere, Frieda’s whole experience of terror, as if it were my own. I’ve always enjoyed that ability…it helps me to terrorize my victims better. My two spirit brothers and I could even know people’s dreams, their perspectives, and their most private thoughts, if we wanted to.

She was frozen with fear, yet shaking all over, her feet seemingly rooted to the ground. She continued weeping a few seconds longer as I feasted, then I looked up at her, licking my lips.

Our eyes met.

She fought against her panic with spastic jerks of her legs. Desperate to run, she just couldn’t.

I just stared with grinning fangs.

I’ll give her a head start, I thought. Give her a fighting chance.

Finally, she broke free of her paralysis and ran, screaming, almost falling.

I bit off another chunk or two of her husband’s flesh, then ran after her.

Be careful, the voice of Chisad whispered in my mind’s ear. Don’t let her screams come within earshot of anyone else. Too many people knew about us after the last full moon.

Chisad was right. I had to pounce on this bitch as soon as possible. Just as the full moon’s contradiction of white and black released the wolf, so could the contradiction—between my bloodlust and her urge to survive—put Chisad, Chebirüsad, and me in danger of being shot…and without a new host to enter when this one that we were in died, we three spirits would be forever exiled from the flesh! Our souls wandering aimlessly in limbo, never able to avenge the deaths of our people! Unbearable banishment!

Frieda kept running, the edge of the forest coming closer. I had to get to her before she got there and drew attention to us.

There are so many contradictions: the one between my will to kill and hers to live, and the hardly endurable one between my will and those of Chisad and Chebirüsad. But when the light of the stars is augmented with the full moon’s white, these clashing with the black backdrop of night, our three urges’ discord is also at its sharpest, bringing out the wolf. Everything is a battle of opposites.

Frieda stopped running. She hid behind a tree.

Always weeping, she thought: Please, God, I don’t want to die. Oh, Franz!

The vibrations all around us spirits guided us to her, better than our wolf’s nose, better than a thousand eyes. I went into some nearby bushes, pretending I didn’t know where she was. In this forest, Kleinwald, no one can hide from me.

I could hear her shaky breathing. We spirits knew her fear, and her thoughts, as if our very consciousness was hers. It was like visiting the inside of her head, seeing through her eyes. What fun for me!

She could feel—and almost hear—her heart pounding in her chest.

She smelled delicious, though she wasn’t pretty enough for me to want sexually; though even if she were, that prig Chebirüsad wouldn’t have let me rape her, anyway. Nor would Chisad have, so worried was he of us being caught and killed. My task was to kill quickly and run to safety, that was all.

Her eyes were darting about, left and right, trying to find me. Then she glanced over to her right, and saw my yellow eyes amid the black of the shadowy bushes. Our eyes met briefly, then mine disappeared from her sight.

Again, her eyes were racing all around her: in front, to the left, to the right, behind her.

Where is it? she wondered.

Then she looked over to her left. She saw one eye this time.

She shuddered. Then the eye disappeared.

Once more, her eyes were frantically scanning the area, but this time never finding my eyes.

She didn’t even hear anything. No growls, no beast’s breathing.

Just blackness and silence, all around her.

Where is it? she asked herself in her mind. Is it gone? Did it lose me? Oh, I hope so. I can’t take this any longer.

She kept looking around and listening, not making any noise, even breathing as quietly as she could.

No eyes anywhere.

No sounds from an animal. Not even the wind in the trees.

She poked her head around, thinking, Please, God, let that beast be gone.

With shaky, spastic legs, she slowly stepped away from the tree and back to the beaten path.

Then I jumped on her.

Her heart and lungs were the tastiest parts.
1—Chisad

With the sun starting to peek over the horizon, Sades was finally restrained, and the wolf, exhausted from running all over the town of Klein, just southwest of the city of Rosenheim in Upper Bavaria, fell asleep by some bushes near a playground in Kleinpark, on the side of town opposite the forest of Kleinwald.

But what woke up four hours later wasn’t a wolf.

Now he was Wolfgang Georg Alexander Bergbauer, 38, and naked as the day he was born.

He looked around, blinking and waiting impatiently for his eyes to focus. He felt chilly all over. Then he knew.

“Oh, shit,” he said, cupping his hands over his genitals. “Not again.”

He noticed and recognized the nearby playground, correctly guessed it was about 8:30 in the morning, and saw only a few people, no more: a mother and her baby in a stroller, and a pretty blonde, about eighteen from the looks of her (even now-passive Sades sensed her desirability). Again, Wolfgang’s intuition was accurate (she was eighteen), since my connection with the spirit world was able to guide his guesses.

He got up and started sneaking over to the girl, not because she was lovely, but because she’d left her hooded red coat on the swing beside the one she was sitting on. Stealing and wearing that woman’s coat might make him look foolish, but his nakedness made him much more of a spectacle. Besides, he was freezing.

Luckily for him, the mother pushed her baby stroller out of the playground, so if there was to be a struggle with the girl, no further attention would be drawn to him. (Actually, I willed the mother to go.) The girl was absorbed in what she was looking at on her phone. He was approaching, wincing whenever he stepped on a sharp rock, and hoping she wouldn’t hear his grunts of discomfort.

My spiritual connection to everything around me allowed me to know what the girl was reading on her phone; I read the text as if her eyes were mine. She and her mother had been exchanging text messages.

Her mother’s text message said, “Renate, where are you? You’ve been missing for the past twelve hours. We’re worried about you. Please come home and let’s fix this problem. We forgive you for being with that boy, and for what you did to your father.”

Renate’s reply was, “You’ll have to find me. I”m not telling you where I am. I’m fed up with all three of you. I’ve already fixed the problem by leaving. I’ll never forgive you for calling me a whore, nor for what Daddy did to him; in fact, I’m going to punish you all by becoming a prostitute. Bye.” After sending the message, she surfed the internet for the news.

In the next few seconds, Wolfgang was right behind her, his right hand almost on the coat. But he got curious, and looked at what she was now reading on her phone: a news story about the second wolf attack near his estate, in the forest south of Klein!

She was smiling with wide eyes as she read. “A wolf,” she whispered to herself, then thought, I love wolves. “Maybe, a werewolf?”

He gasped, drawing her attention away. She looked over at him as he snatched her coat. She grabbed it by the other side, and they began a tug of war.

“Hey!” she said, almost falling off the swing. “That’s my coat!”

“Sorry,” he said. “I need…to borrow it.”

As they struggled, she couldn’t restrain her curiosity, and she looked down at his body; her eyes widened again, impressed with the hunk of meat she saw dangling down.

“Mmm,” she moaned with a smile.

With his greater strength, he managed to wrest the coat from her. She fell off the swing.

“Hey!” she shouted, thudding on the ground.

“Thanks,” he said, running away with it.

Having not put it on yet, he looked back at her briefly, grinning at the lustful amazement in her eyes at the sight of his muscular body. Indeed, that lewd awe she felt kept her in such a trance that she forgot to scream for help. She just sat in the dirt and stared at his pretty arse.

What most fascinated her about his body, even more so than his good looks, was the deep scar scratched from his chest—on the right—down his right side to just below his right buttock, a brown swirl of four claws. Though perfectly healed, it seemed a permanent indentation in his skin.

What a sexy naked man, she thought, licking her lips. Then she said, “He must be the werewolf the locals have been talking about.” No one believes them, of course, she thought, grinning at the sight of him farther away, now wearing her coat as if he were a cross-dresser. People think those locals are crazy to believe in werewolves. But I believe. At least, I want to believe.

She licked her lips again.

If he’s the werewolf, she thought, I want him.

[If you liked this excerpt and want to read more, here’s a link to the e-book on Amazon.]